NZR+++ More, bigger and better are the cornerstones of the special self [under development]

For the special self it is always about being better and bigger and of course to be in control – also when it disguised as a do-gooder sends love and healing to someone it has judged to have less than itself, because this is not only confirming separation as real but that the special self is better and bigger than the other. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

Not many thoughts pop up in the basic self since it is not on a constant quest for becoming better or more unique. In fact, it does not even have a sense of itself as someone who needs to be improved, nor that what it appears to be is better than anything else – neither a cockroach.

Thus it has no need to hold onto thoughts, that seem to make it stand out, whereas the special self always holds onto such kind of thoughts and avoid those that do not fit into its idea of standing out.

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That not many thoughts pop up in the basic self is not a fact but the way it is perceived. As the brain needs to be active all the time, there are always thoughts. The basic self knows it does not need to be aware of them when it is not active.

It can be compared to driving a car in very cold weather. When you stop to take a break, it is better to keep the engine running, and even though it keeps on making sounds, the basic self is hardly aware of it.

The special self, on the other hand, pays much attention to all the silly fantasies, the brain makes when the self is not involved in any activity, because otherwise, it has nothing to distract it from feeling itself. Hence it follows up on the brains fantasies and composes stories of its own, that often starts with What if, and contains whatever the special self thinks will impress others.

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There are many articles in the news pointing out that hardly any part of the earth is untouched by the damaging impacts of humanity. Yet there are very few pointing out that hardly any part of a human is untouched by the detrimental effects of itself.

Every nook and cranny of a human has been labelled by physicists and psychologists so that most feel compelled to live by that and not the natural stream of thoughts coming from the brain.

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The special self does not want its facade to crack, so it wants to be in control everything. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

The basic self does not need to edit thoughts to appear as if it is better than it is, because it knows nothing better than to follow the steam of thoughts precisely as it comes from the brain. Not always in the sense that the special self acts upon the stream, but in the sense that it is entertained by it – like if it is listening to music.

If it dives deep into this, the entertainment may become so abstract that glimpses of the enlightenment of that which is one pop up here and there. Read more about that here.

The special self on the other hand always edit the stream of thoughts that it receives from the brain so that it seems to be making them itself – but most of all so it can avoid the feelings the original stream of thoughts may entail.

Unless the special self is in a special place surrounded by special people focusing on a special feeling of freedom, it does not want to be in contact with the emotions, that seem to be inside it, but rather to be engaged in speculative questions like ´do I really love this person?´ to which the answer is no. The special needs to be in control, which it achieves by talking about feelings instead of disappearing in them.

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Since feelings tend to mess up the image of the special self, it wants to keep them at a distance. But as it likes to show off as an open person, it lays the blame for fencing off feelings on its spouse or somebody else, who it criticises for being closed and thus making it impossible for it to express its feelings.

This perceived unapproachableness of others is a favourite topic of the special. And although its own feelings are unrecognised, it is an expert on what others feel or denies to feel. At least it likes to think so, but what it sees in others is its own suppressed feelings. Read more about that here.

The basic self, on the other hand, has no specific feelings to express or to get out of its system, because it is an integrated part of the world that appears to be outside of it. In other words, what it sees mirrors its feelings and vice versa.

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Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

Those, who have established themselves as unique and having the power to doing things in their own way and pace, need to meditate or something else that makes them able to be in control of thoughts, because in order to uphold their appearance of independence, they need to constantly manipulate the thoughts generated by the brain into something that attests to their importance in a mundane and/or spiritual way.

So even though the special self meditates with the official purpose of slowing down thoughts, the real goal is to control them to exclude those not confirming its exclusive image. But since the exclusion of specific thoughts disturbs the natural flow of them, they wander around disconnected from each other in search of a connection. And as meditating or coming from the heart is an attempt to exclude this chaos, it enhances what it tries to ban.

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Lots of thoughts seem to pop up when you try to become more rich, spiritual, free and whatnot because you need more thoughts to become more.

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A cockroach survives because it always is on guard and ready to run as fast as it can to save its life. The same applies to the special self. It is always on the lookout for something that can make its life better and runs towards it as fast as it can to get it.

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The legs you seem to have in the world of a dream is not yours, because your legs are at rest in your bed. Likewise what you appear to be in a world where there seems to be more than one is not that which is you. It rests in that which is one, and as it takes more than one to be somewhere, it is nowhere.

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The experience we have of being someone definitive amongst like-minded ones is like having a dream where we appear to be with others. Yet being together is a dream we have all by ourselves.

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Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

If you see pink – also called fuchsia – in the above image, you have manipulated the basic self into being more than it is because there is no pink in the world rendered by the brain for the basic self to see.

But as the special self demands order and as all colours except lime green has an opposite colour, the special self makes a script that mixes red and purple into pink, which theoretical speaking should be the opposite colour of lime green, so this it is what it perceives every time it sees something that is supposed to have the opposite colour of lime green. Read more in article Do you see a pink colour in this image?

That being said, it might also be an attempt to see that which does not exist, namely that which is one. But as it takes more than one to see something,  oneness cannot be viewed. This is also why it does not exist. Yet it is formless and therefore endless, so there is no more than that which does not exist. In other words, existence is an illusion. Read more about that in That which is one is non-existence because it takes more than one to exist.

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The basic self does not wonder about where to go. It merely follows the GPS coordination it gets from the brain without taking any side trips of its own, contrary to the special self that always finds something it judges to be better.

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The special self hates being told what to do. If unavoidable, it makes up a story in which it is detached or something else that makes it appears to be in control of its life.

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You feel happy when going with the flow of thoughts coming from the brain because it is adjusted to the ever-changing world that you seem to experience since it is a construction of those thoughts.

The flow of thoughts suggests that there is someone experiencing a world – not in a definitive but relative way though.

But when you in attempt to be free and independent try to construct a better self and world by adding concepts of for example capitalism, socialism or spiritualism to the of thoughts, its simplicity is messed up with ideas that cannot be implemented neither in you or the world, so you end up in endless speculations of what to do.

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In a world of duality, you only know, that you are feeling something specific if you also know the contrast to this feeling. So to know when you feel love, you must know what hate feels like. Thus you cannot know the happiness of the basic self without being in contact with sadness as well. But as it is like two sides of the same coin, the basic self knows that when it feels sad, happiness is also there.

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When you do not feel content and look for something better to fulfil you than the thoughts produced by the brain, you know you have discarded the simplicity of the basic self fabricated by the brain and made a more specialized version of it via the consciousness the brain implemented in the basic self.

Yet this mistake is easily corrected, if you acknowledge that you are mistaken, because that reconnects the biological system with the brain, so it can be used as an instrument for working out what is in your best interest, which by the way is no different from what is in the best interest for everybody, because even though the special self is experiencing itself to be different from its experiences, it is not so.


NOTE: This article is part of hack #4.3 The basic self versus the special one.