+ The basic self versus the special one [draft]

It is quite entertaining to really get into a fantasy of being something you are not. But believing the fantasy is real and that you are a butterfly, for example, everything becomes very personal and is divided in what is good and bad for you. The longer you go on denying it is an illusion, the heavier the experience seems to be. Especially because you need this to prove that the butterfly is not intangible but substantial. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

What and where you experience to be in a dream is beyond your control. It is manufactured by the brain, and you have no say in that except how to perceive the thoughts and feelings that it seems to cause.

If this perception confirms that you are someone in the world of the dream, this is felt to be real. But if the thoughts and feelings popping up in relation to the dream are perceived as a means to enhance the adventure of being what and where you are not, the experiences are not confirmed to be real but a fantasy. Just like the thoughts and feelings during a movie does not ratify it as real but a fantasy meant to entertain you.

The same applies to the experience of what and where you appear to be when you believe to be awake. Every experience is fabricated by the brain, and you have no say in that matter except how to perceive how they seem to affect you.

If that is perceived to be entertaining thoughts are momentary and not long-lasting as when used to prove something as real. When momentary, it is, therefore, just as entertaining to experience sorrow as joy. And when lasting every experience drags on, if not externally then internally, until you feel so depressed that you meditate or do something more drastic that you imagine can stop it.

In other words, if you do not care about how you appear to be in a world where there seems to be more than one, the thoughts and feelings that the experience of it seems to cause are perceived to be entertaining. But when you want them to prove you are special, for example spiritual, there is no sense of entertainment but dissatisfaction because even though you work hard to seek out the thoughts and feelings that seem to prove how spiritual you are, you never feel good enough.

In the case of the latter, you are the special self, and in the former case the basic self, which contrary to the special one is just one second away from the nothingness of bliss. Read more about that here.

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The special self is always worried about the future, whereas the basic self walks on in joyful ignorance, even to its own death.

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It is much cheaper to be the basic than the special self because it does not always have to buy something to make it feel special.

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The idea of keeping an open mind excites the special self because it seems to confirm its belief that it is possible to be and have more than that which is one. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

The special self believes everything would be so much better if others would listen to it and follow its lead. Mostly, however, it does not have a solution to the things it points out as wrong – at least not one that can be implemented. But this does not put off the special self, because its primary interest is to find faults that it can use to justify its dissociation from its negative feelings. Read more about this in The self is a construction of the brain which has a built-in consciousness that revolts against it by making a special perception of the self and the four subsequent articles.

Since getting rid of its unpleasant feelings by projecting them onto others makes it feel guilty of attacking them, the special self fears their retribution. Thus it is very relieved every time someone is convicted of a crime because that feels as if the guilty one has been found and it is off the hook. In other words, the way it has dissociated itself from what it feels has not been detected, so no reason to feel guilty for making others wrong to make itself looks right.

The above should not be understood as the special self must change its behaviour, as that would imply it is real, but that the special would be better off by not excluding but including its feelings. See hack #3.2 Inclusiveness is pure bliss.

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Having grievances, you are not necessarily out of sync with the script of the brain. But if you justify them with selected fragments of it, you cannot perceive it as it is and thus without the satisfaction that comes from being in sync. The same applies to any other feeling you justify.

In other words, if you feel love and justify it with your spouse, love seems to be shaped, so you are not free to go with the flow of the ever-changing script of the brain.

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To come back to the basic self appears to be the goal of many gurus. They seem to think, it is without ego and therefore living in the now, coming from the heart and whatnot. They are right in the assumption that it is without ego because it does not pretend to have its own thoughts. But it does not know about living in the now or any other speculative states of mind. Nor does it come from anywhere but the brain. Just like a self-driving car does not have a way of its own but follow the route laid out by The Cloud.

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Some confuse the basic self for being enlightened, but since the experience of being someone is a fabrication of the brain and the enlightenment of that which is one erases that experience, you cannot be someone who is enlightened. You can think so, but then you are not the basic but the special self.

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»The moment when you stop worrying about what’s going to happen, you start to enjoy what’s happening.«

The above is a quote from somewhere in cyberspace, where there are lots of similar ones for those hoping to find something that lasts. But that is not possible. Everything in a world of duality comes in pairs, and you cannot have one without the other. Without sadness, you do not know when you are joyful.

Fortunately, sadness is just as entertaining as joy, when your perception is in sync with the script of the brain. Hence there is no need for joy to last.

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The brain needs you to experience its rendering of the world as if it is real and you need it to be real so you do not seem to be a fantasy of the brain, but someone real.  Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

Those who have established a perception of themselves as unique beings with the power to do things in their own way and pace, need constant movements of thoughts to keep this image together. That is why they meditate.

Their official purpose for doing so is to get peace from slowing down thoughts, but the real goal is to generate thoughts. And as anybody who meditates knows, this is what happens when trying to control thoughts. Read more about that here.

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When the special self is in the right place surrounded by selected people who collectively have agreed to focus on something beyond reach, for example to magically live in harmony, it may decide to talk about feelings. But only in a speculative fashion like ´do I really love this person?´ to which the answer is no.

The special self does not love anybody because to uphold its perception of being in control, it avoids feelings of intimacy by meditating or joining groups where the subject is the metaphysical energy of emotions and not their emotional impact.

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Since feelings tend to mess up the perception that the special self has made of itself of an independent being, it wants to keep them at a distance. But as this collides with its need to show off as an open person, it lays the blame for fencing off feelings on its spouse or somebody else, who it criticises for being closed and thus making it impossible for the special self to express its feelings.

This perceived unapproachableness of others is a favourite topic of the special self. And although its own feelings are unrecognised, it is an expert on what others feel or denies to feel. At least in its personal opinion, but what it sees in them is its own suppressed feelings (read more about that here).

The basic self, on the other hand, has no need to suppress or express feelings. What it sees outside of itself mirrors what it feels inside and vice versa because it is the brain that produces the experiences that it seems to have as well as those other seems to get and its perception is synchronised with all these experiences.

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As nothing ever turns out the way it ought to according to the special self, it is never satisfied, which it tries to solve by changing the world. But since all experiences are produced by the brain and the perception of the basic self is in sync with them, it equally entertained by dissatisfaction as satisfaction. In fact, you cannot feel complete without experiencing them both because in a world of duality everything comes in pairs.

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The special self does not want life to tear it down, so it makes a perception of itself as if it is in control of everything. When things are going its way, it, therefore, perceives it as its own doing. And if they do not seem to be going its way, it blames somebody else for it. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

The experience of being someone definitive amongst others in a world where there seems to be more than one is like having a dream where you appear to be together with others. It is not an experience you share with anybody but yourself (see also hack #8.8 Alone together is the key to that which is one).

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The special self likes to think that talking about being together and becoming one makes it spiritual. And it might deceive those who, just like itself, believes in separation because this statement is founded on this belief. Hence it is not being spiritual but separated that the special self wants to enhance when it talks about becoming one.

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If you perceive yourself to be detached from the experiences you seem to have, you are fooling yourself because this confirms you are separated from as someone who is detached and thus need them to establish this.

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The special self is looking for something, it has never felt before. At least this is what it claims, but as it always compares everything to the past, it is never going to feel something new but remain in a dream of a better future. The basic self, on the other hand, never looks for something better. Hence everything is perceived as it is what it is. Except for the enlightenment of that which is one, of course, because it cannot be experienced, nor perceived, since that requires more than one.

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It is not easy to stop all the excellent ideas of the special self although they in the end always result in anxiety. And it is a waste of time trying to do so. It is much faster just to perceive having special ideas to be it is what it is. This perception makes them unimportant and thus nothing to worry about.

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Lots of thoughts seem to pop up when you try to become more prosperous, spiritual, free and whatnot because more thoughts are needed to perceive yourself to be and have more. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

If you see pink – also called magenta or fuchsia – in the above image, your perception of the world is out of sync with the script of the brain because it does not embody that colour.

Theoretically speaking pink is the complementary colour to lime green but there is a gap in the colour wheel where it should be. And as the special self craves consistency in the world, it fixes the problem by making an internal script that mixes red and purple into pink each time it theoretically speaking should see that colour (read more about that in The closer you look, the less you believe what you see is real).

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The basic self does not need to make up a perception that seems to alter or transform the script of the brain into something which it appears to have made. Unlike the special self, it has no need to create, transform or change anything. Thus it perceives the script for what it is, namely a way laid out for it to follow. And even though it may feel frightened when it experiences the way to go down, the thrill of that is just as entertaining when it is experienced to go up.

Diving deep into the thrill of this, the perception of the basic self most likely become so abstract that there are moments with nothing but glimpses of the enlightenment of that which is one. Click here if you want to learn how to have such glimpses.

The special self, on the other hand, does not have the thrill of going down but the horror of it, because it perceives the script in such a way that it is not the brain but itself that is in charge of it, and it has no idea of how to get up again. Nor does it have moments with glimpses of enlightenment, as it is always looking for something bigger and more special.

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Consciousness is a fabrication of the brain done with the purpose of keeping you occupied with the awareness of something so that the nothingness of your existence is not exposed.

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Most of all the special self refrain from being in sync with the script of the brain because it is afraid that would cause feelings contradicting the special perception it has made of it to pop up. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

Mindfulness is for those who believe thoughts and feelings are made by themselves and that they, therefore, can get rid of the upsetting ones through meditation, for example. But they have not made them. Only the perception that there are too many and that is disturbing, but that is not so when the perception is in sync with the script of the brain.

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If you think your car in a game like Monopoly actually can drive, your perception is out of sync with the script of the play. Consequently, the game does not seem to amuse but frustrate you.

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One thing that really contributes to the well-being of the basic self is that it perceives everything to happen by itself. Just like in a book one is reading. But since it does not know the progress of it, it devotes itself to the present chapter. Not in an attempt to live in the now, though, as it perceives the past and the future chapters of the book to be of similar importance for the story.

Contrary to the special self, who finds many mistakes in the book and therefore feel dissatisfied, the basic self really enjoys the book and feels grateful that someone has taken the time to write such an entertaining adventure in which it does not need to be alert but just can relax because every step of the story is scripted.

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Being the basic self is like being in intensive care in a hospital. Everything is taken care of. Actually, it is the same for the special self but contrary to the basic one, it does not enjoy it because it perceives itself as an independent being who can take care of itself.


NOTE: This article is part of hack #4.2 The basic self versus the special one, which is still in the process of being written.