+ The basic self versus the special one [draft]

It is quite entertaining to really get into a fantasy of being something you are not. But believing the fantasy is real and that you are a butterfly, for example, everything becomes very personal and is divided in what is good and bad for you. The longer you go on denying it is an illusion, the heavier the experience seems to be. Especially because you need this to prove that the butterfly is not intangible but substantial. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

The experience of what and where you appear to be in a dream is beyond your control. It is made by the brain and you have no say in that matter except how to perceive the thoughts and feelings the experience of the dream seems to cause.

If you perceive them to be real, the world in the dream and your appearance there also seems to be real. If you perceive the thoughts and feelings as something to entertain you, like when you do when watching a movie, the dream does not seem real and the thoughts and feelings are do not remain with you.

They are momentary and not lasting as when perceived to be real. In the former case it is therefore just as entertaining to experience sorrow as joy and in the latter every experience drag on and sooner or later to make you sad.

The same applies to the experience of what and where you appear to be when you believe to be awake. Every experience is fabricated by the brain and you have no say in that matter except how to perceive how they seem to affect you.

If you want your response to be the proof of your existence as someone in the world of the experiences fabricated by the brain, you will perceive the thoughts and feelings they seem to cause as real. But if you do not care for being someone specific there, you perceive them as funny and thus feel entertained contrary to feeling depressed when you want them to prove you are someone definitive there and thus perceived to be real.

In the case of the latter, you are the special self and in the former case the basic self, which contrary to the special one is just one second away from the nothingness of bliss. Read more about that here.


The idea of keeping an open mind excites the special self because it seems to confirm its belief that it is possible to be and have more than that which is one.


The special self believes everything would be so much better if others would listen to it and follow its lead. Mostly, however, it does not have a solution to the things it points out as wrong – at least not one that is possible to implement. But this does not put off the special self, as its primary interest is to find faults that it can use to justify its dissociation from its negative feelings. Read more about this in The belief in a body-mind connection ruins everything and the subsequent articles.

Since getting rid of its unpleasant feelings by projecting them onto others makes it fears their retribution, the special self is very relieved every time someone is convicted of a crime because that means the guilty one has been found and it is off the hook. In other words, the way it has dissociated itself from what it feels has not been detected, so no reason to feel guilty for making others wrong in order make itself looks right.

The above should not be understood as the special self must change its behaviour, as that would imply it is real, but that it would be better off by not excluding but including its feelings. See hack #3.2 Inclusiveness is pure bliss.


Having grievances you are not necessarily out of sync with the script of the brain. But if you justify them, they get sticky and prevent you from being in sync with the flow of the script. The same applies to anger or any other feeling, regardless it appears to be negative or positive.

In other words, if you feel love and justify it with your spouse, loves seems to take a shape, so you are not free to feel the flow of it, which is ever-changing – just like the clouds that come and go.


To come back to the basic self appears to be the goal of many gurus. They seem to think, it is without ego and therefore living in the now, coming from the heart and whatnot. They are right in the assumption, that it is without ego because it does not pretend to have its own thoughts. But it does not know about living in the now or any other speculative states of mind. nor does it come from anywhere but the brain.

Like a self-driving car does not have a way of its own but follow the way laid out by The Cloud, the basic self follows the script of the brain.


»The moment when you stop worrying about what’s going to happen, you start to enjoy what’s happening.«

The above is a quote from somewhere in cyberspace, where there are lots of similar ones for those hoping to find something that lasts. But that is not possible. Without sadness to contrast joy, you do not know when you are joyful.

Fortunately, sadness is just as entertaining as joy, when your perception is in sync with the script of the brain. Thus there is no need for joy to last.


The brain needs you to experience its rendering of the world as if it is real and you need it to be real so you do not seem to be a fantasy of the brain, but someone who is real.  Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

Those who have established a perception of themselves as unique beings with the power to do things in their own way and pace, need constant movements of thoughts to keep this image together. That is why they meditate.

Their official purpose for doing it is to get peace from slowing down thoughts, but the real goal is to generate thoughts. And as anybody who meditates knows, this is what happens when trying to control thoughts.


When the special self is in the right place surrounded by selected people who collectively have agreed to focus on something beyond reach, for example to magically live in harmony, it may agree to talk about feelings. But only in a speculative fashion like ´do I really love this person?´ to which the answer is no.

The special self does not love anybody because to uphold its perception of being in control, it avoids feelings of intimacy by joining groups where the subject is the metaphysical energy of feelings and not their emotional impact.


Since feelings tend to mess up the perception the special self has made of itself, it wants to keep them at a distance. But as it likes to show off as an open person, it lays the blame for fencing off feelings on its spouse or somebody else, who is criticised for being closed and thus making it impossible for the special self to express its feelings.

This perceived unapproachableness of others is a favourite topic of the special self. And although its own feelings are unrecognised, it is an expert on what others feel or denies to feel. At least in its own opinion, but what it sees in them is its own suppressed feelings (read more about that here).

The basic self, on the other hand, has no specific feelings to express or to get out of its system, because it is an integrated part of the world that appears to be outside of it. In other words, what it sees mirrors its feelings and vice versa. And that feels good.


The special self does not want life to tear it down, so it makes up a perception of itself as if it is in control of everything. When things are going its way, it, therefore, perceives it as its own doing. And if they do not seem to be going its way, it blames somebody else for it. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

The experience of being someone definitive amongst others in a world where there seems to be more than one is like having a dream where you appear to be together with others. It is not an experience you share with anybody but yourself (see also hack #8.8 Alone together is the key to that which is one).


The special self likes to think that saying »we are all one« makes it spiritual. And it might deceive those who, just like itself, believes in separation because this statement is founded on that belief. Thus it is not being spiritual but separated which is enhanced when you speak of being at one.


If you perceive yourself to be detached from the experiences you seem to have and therefore from the script of the brain, you are fooling yourself. If not responding to the experiences by perceiving them as something, they cannot confirm you as someone wherefore you are exposed as nothing.

But since you perceive yourself to be someone who is detached, this is not the result of your detachment. On the contrary, you appear to be someone who exists.

In other words, to consider yourself as detached is just another way of twisting the basic self into a special one.


Perceiving yourself to be detached from feelings confirms you are separated from them and it. Detachment, therefore, reinforces the belief in separation and thus the suffering it entails instead of undoing it.


The special self is looking for something, it has never felt before. At least that is what it claims, but as it always compares everything to the past, it is never going to feel anything new but remain in a dream of a better future to come. The basic self on the other hands never looks for something better. Consequently, everything is perceived as it is what it is. Except for the enlightenment of that which is one, of course, because it cannot be experienced and therefore not perceived since that requires more than one.


Lots of thoughts seem to pop up when you try to become more prosperous, spiritual, free and whatnot because more thoughts are needed to perceive yourself to be and have more. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

If you see pink – also called magenta or fuchsia – in the above image, your perception of the world is out of sync with the script of the brain because it does not embody that colour. Hence you have chosen to be the special self.

As all colours in the colour wheel except lime green have a complementary colour, and as the special self craves consistency in the world, it solves the problem of the missing colour by making a script of its own that mixes red and purple and thus perceives pink when it theoretically speaking should be there. (read more in The closer you look, the less you believe what you see is real).

That being said, this might also be an attempt to see reality, namely, that which is one. But as it takes more than one to see something, it cannot be seen. And as it is formless and therefore endless, there is nothing else than that which cannot be seen. Consequently, seeing something is an illusion (read more about that here).


The basic self does not need to make up a perception that seems to alter or transform the script of the brain into something which appears to have been made by itself. Unlike the special self, it has no need to create, transform or change anything. Thus it perceives the script for what it is, namely a way laid out for it to follow. And even though it may feel frightened when the way is experienced to be going down, the thrill of that is just as entertaining as going up.

When diving deep into the thrill of this entertainment, the perception of the special self most likely become so abstract that there are moments with nothing but glimpses of the enlightenment of that which is one. Click here if you want to learn how to have glimpses of the enlightenment of that which is one.

The special self, on the other hand, does not have the thrill of going down but the horror of it, because it perceives the script in such a way that it is not the brain but itself that is in charge of it, and it has no idea of how to get up again. Nor does it notice any glimpse of the enlightenment of that which is one, as it is always looking for something bigger and more special.


If one’s perception is in sync with the flow of thoughts coming from the brain, experiences seem relative. Not being in sync with the flow of thoughts, experiences appear to be definitive. The former results in feeling free and the latter in feeling imprisoned. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

Most of all the special self refrain from being in sync with the script of the brain because it is afraid that would cause feelings contradicting the special perception it has made of it to pop up.


Mindfulness is for those who believe thoughts and feelings are made by themselves and that they, therefore, can get rid of the upsetting ones through meditation, for example. But they have not made them. Only the perception, that there are so many of them and that they are disturbing, which is not so when the perception is in sync with the script of the brain.


If you think your car in a game like Monopoly can actually drive your perception of its script is out of sync. Thus the game does not seem to be amusing but frustrating.


To go on as the basic self does not require that your perception literally speaking always is in sync with the script of the brain. You have to agree with it but to relate only to that and not speculative concepts of for example socialism, capitalism or spiritualism.

Do not worry, if you by mistake interpret something in relation to one of the worlds many isms instead of the script as it is made by the brain. Perceptions that miss the target does not disconnect you from the brain when you now know the script cannot be altered. They just make you smile and thus adds to the happiness of being a basic self.


One thing that really contributes to the well-being of the basic self is that it perceives everything to happen by itself. Just like reading an exciting book written in a way so you hardly can wait to read the next chapter. But since it does not know how the story continues, it devotes itself to the present chapter. Not an attempt to live in the now, however, as it perceives all the past and the coming chapters of the book to be of similar importance for the story.

Contrary to the special self, who finds many mistakes in the book and therefore feel dissatisfied, the basic self really enjoys it and feels grateful that someone has taken the time to write this entertaining adventure.

NOTE: This article is part of hack #4.2 The basic self versus the special one, which is still in the process of being written.