+ More, bigger and better are the cornerstones of the special self

For the special self it is always about becoming better and bigger – also when it disguised as a do-gooder sends love and healing to someone, it has judged to have less than itself, because this is not only confirming separation to be real but that the special self has more than the other one. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

Not that many thoughts pop up in the basic self, as it is not on a constant quest for something better. It does not even have a sense of itself as someone who can change, or that the appearances in its experiences are different from itself – not even a cockroach.

So contrary to the special self it has no need to perceive itself to be someone who stands out as better than others.

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That not too many thoughts pop up in the basic self is not a fact but the way it is perceived. The brain needs the self that it has developed to continuously make up perceptions as if the experiences it puts together of a world where there seems to be more than one are real. The self agrees to this because if it does not perceive the experiences created by the brain as something, they are nothing and so is itself.

Having agreed on this, the perceptions of the self seem to make themselves, so not much awareness of thoughts going on in the background are needed.

The ongoing thoughts can be compared to driving a car in icy weather. When you stop to take a break, it is best to keep the engine running. Even though that makes a lot of noise, you do not notice it until you want to use the car again.

The special self, however, pays much attention to the silly fantasies going on in the background when it is not engaged in an activity, as otherwise, the special self has nothing to distract itself from the feeling of being lonely. Hence it follows up on the fantasies and expands them into stories of its own. They often start with What if and contain whatever the special self thinks will make others like it.

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There are many articles in the news pointing out that hardly any part of the earth is untouched by the damaging impacts of humanity. Yet there are very few pointing out that hardly any part of a human is untouched by the detrimental ways physicists, psychologists and new agers label every nook and cranny of it so that most feel compelled to adjust their perception of themselves to these rigid definitions instead of the natural flow of thoughts coming from the brain.

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The special self does not want life to tear it down, so it makes up a perception of itself as if it is in control of everything. When things are going its way, it is, therefore, its own doing. Should it not like the way things go, it blames somebody else.. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

The approach of the basic self can be compared to buying an album from an artist, whereas the special self prefers to stream music so it can exclude everything from an album that it does not like and compose a special playlist (read more about that here).

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The basic self does not need to make up a perception which seems to alter or transform the stream of thoughts coming from the brain into something that appears better than it is. On the contrary. It knows of nothing better than to perceive the flowstream of thoughts as it is. This does not necessarily mean, it always acts upon its perception but that it always feels entertained by it.

When diving deep into the joy of this entertainment, the basic self may perceive itself to be so abstract that glimpses of enlightenment naturally pop up. Click here to learn how to have glimpses of the enlightenment of that which is one.

The special self, on the other hand, perceives what the thoughts it receives from the brain in such a way that it seems to make them itself and, therefore, able to stop them via meditation or whatnot. Most of all it wants to alter or prevent the stream of thoughts coming from the brain because it is afraid, it may cause feelings that contradict the perception it has made of itself based on what is politically correct amongst the people it has chosen to frequent.

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When the special self is in the right place surrounded by selected people who collectively have agreed to focus on ideas beyond reach, for example, to magically live in harmony, it may agree to talk about feelings but only in a speculative fashion like ´do I really love this person?´. The answer is no. The special self loves nobody because to uphold the perception of being in control, it avoids feelings of intimacy by joining groups where the subject is the metaphysical energy of them and not their emotional impact.

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The special self likes to show off as someone who is open-minded, but since it does not want to expose its manipulative nature, it avoids to open up by having relationships with others who are more closed than itself so it can blame them for holding it back. The basic self, on the other hand, never holds back. It has no hidden agenda. Just like a self-driving car, it goes where it is told to go. That is all. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

Since feelings tend to mess up the perception the special self has made of itself, it wants to keep them at a distance. But as it likes to show off as an open person, it lays the blame for fencing off feelings on its spouse or somebody else, who it criticises for being closed and thus making it impossible for it to express its feelings.

This perceived unapproachableness of others is a favourite topic of the special self. And although its own feelings are unrecognised, it is an expert on what others feel or denies to feel. At least in its own opinion, but what it sees in them is its own suppressed feelings (read more about that here.

The basic self, on the other hand, has no specific feelings to express or to get out of its system, because it is an integrated part of the world that appears to be outside of it. In other words, what it sees mirrors its feelings and vice versa. And that feels good.

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Those who have established a perception of themselves as unique beings with the power to do things in their own way and pace, need constant movements of thoughts to keep this image together. That is why they meditate.

Their official purpose to do it is to get peace from slowing down thoughts, but the real purpose is to generate thoughts. And as anybody who meditates knows this is what happens when trying to control thoughts.

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The brain needs you to experience its rendering of the world as if it is real and you need it to be real so you do not seem to be a fantasy of the brain, but someone who is real.  Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

The legs that seem to make you run in a dream are not yours, because your legs are at rest in your bed. Likewise what you appear to be in a world where there seems to be more than one is not that which is you. It rests in that which is one, and as it takes more than one to be somewhere, it is nowhere. Yet it is also everywhere because oneness is formless and therefore endless.

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Alexius is together with you and everybody else no matter what and where you appear to be. This does not mean he is at one with everybody, as that requires more than one. But it means, that he never miss anybody.

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The experience of being someone definitive amongst others in a world where there seems to be more than one is like having a dream where you appear to be together with others. It is not an experience you share with anybody but yourself (see also hack #8.8 Alone together is the key to that which is one).

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Mindfulness is for those who believe thoughts and feelings are something that they make themselves and they, therefore, can control through meditation, so those bothering them are dismissed. But they have not made them. Only the perception, that there are so many of them and that they are disturbing, which is not so when the perception in sync with the script of the brain.

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The special self likes to think that to say »we are all one« makes it spiritual. And it might deceive those that, just like itself, believes in separation because this statement is founded on that belief. Thus it is separation which is what is enhanced when you speak of being at one.

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To perceive yourself as detached from feelings confirms you to be someone separated from them and, therefore, reinforces the belief in separation instead of undoing it.

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Lots of thoughts seem to pop up when you try to become more prosperous, spiritual, free and whatnot because more thoughts are needed to perceive yourself to be and have more. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

If you see pink – also called magenta and fuchsia – in the above image, your perception of the world is out of sync with the script of the brain because it does not embody that colour. Thus you have chosen to be the special self.

As all colours in the colour wheel except lime green have an opposite colour, and the special self expects consistency in the world, it makes a script of its own that mixes red and purple into pink, which theoretical speaking is the contrasting colour of lime green. Hence pink is what it believes to see every time something is supposed to have the opposite colour of lime green (read more in The closer you look, the less you believe what you see is real).

That being said, this might also be an attempt to see that which does not exist, namely, that which is one. But as oneness is formless and therefore endless, there is nothing else than that which does not exist. Consequently, to exist or see something is an illusion (read more about that in That which is one is non-existence because it takes more than one to exist).

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You feel happy when perceiving the flow of thoughts coming from the brain like shit happens because then you feel equally entertained by any experience this flow seems to embody.

But if you in attempt to be free and independent of the flow from the brain and make a perception based on the concept of for example capitalism, socialism or spiritualism, you are out of sync with the flow thus with the world because it is rendered by it. Hence everything appears to be very speculative instead, and not just that shit happens.

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If one’s perception is in sync with the flow of thoughts coming from the brain, the world is experienced to be relative and thus also the one experiencing it. Not being in sync with the flow of thoughts, the world is experienced to be definitive and so is the one experiencing it. The former results in feeling free and the latter in feeling imprisoned. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

Whether the special self convinces you to indulge in or refrain from sex, the purpose is the same, namely, to enhance the belief that you are in charge of your own life.

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The special self hates being told what to do. If it cannot avoid it, it makes up a story that in retrospect shows it as detached or something else that makes it appear to have been in control.

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In a world of duality, everything comes in pairs. So to experience love, for example, you must also know what hate feels like. Consequently, you cannot feel the happiness of being a basic self without a touch of sadness as well. But as they are two sides of the same coin, the basic self knows that when it feels sad, happiness is also there.

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When your body seems to bother you, it is out of touch with its biological system because your perception of it is out of sync with its script run by the brain. If you do not correct your perception, so the biological system can do its thing, but try to make the body better by taking over the control of it via yoga, fitness or other things forcing it into a specific shape, the body suffers from a psychosomatic disorder. See the hack No Body-Mind Connection in Extra Duality Hacks about the unfortunate belief in a body-mind connection or read the next articles, which covers this in more detail.

This cannot be healed unless you acknowledge being mistaken and thus sets the biological system free from your control so it can reconnect with the brain and be used as it is meant to, namely to tell you what is in your own best interest. This, by the way, is no different from what is in the best interest for everybody, because the brain has no personal preferences.

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Since it is very lonesome to perceive itself to be disconnected from the brain, the special self always looks for something bigger to be part of. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

To be the basic self does not require that your perception literally speaking always to be in sync with the script of the brain. Do not worry, if you by reflex interpret something as if you are special. When you now know the basic self cannot be altered, perceptions that imply it can be changed and transformed into something special, makes you smile. Hence an off perception of being special does not disconnect you from the brain and consequently neither from its injections of happiness. In fact, you are already smiling at your foolish perception of being special.

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Being in sync with the stream of thoughts precisely as it comes from the brain is like having the brain blown out. It can be compared to binge-watching a TV show and afterwards feeling absorbed entirely.


NOTE: This article is part of hack #4.2 The basic self versus the special one, which is still in the process of being written.