Notes on feelings

Pinching yourself in the arm, the brain registers a physical feeling. Hence you conclude, you are alive. But since the experience of the physical sensation is created by the brain, this conclusion does not prove you exist as someone substantial in a tangible world outside the brain – just like regardless of what and where you experience to be in a dream, you are not there but in your bed. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

»If you’re sitting in a safe and comfortable position, close your eyes and try to feel your heart beating in your chest. Can you, without moving your hands to take your pulse, feel each movement and count its rhythm? Or do you struggle to detect anything at all? This simple test is just one way to assess your ´interoception´ – your brain´s perception of your body’s state, transmitted from receptors on all your internal organs … There’s a constant communication dialogue between the brain and the viscera (internal organs).«

The above test reveals if the connection between the brain and the body works in you. The quote is from the article Interoception: the hidden sense that shapes wellbeing in the Guardian. Like in Alexius´ Enlightened Non-Teachings, the article concludes that many people have cut off the link between the body and the brain. And since the latter controls the body, it is left without guidance.

According to Alexius´ Enlightened Non-Teachings, this connection must be re-established, so no body parts act independently but work as a group governed by the brain. But, of course, the article in the Guardian has another conclusion. It says that you need to master the body, and in doing so, you are in touch with its signals and thus your feelings because they are in the body.

But believing you are the master of body and brain is the root of the problem. To become a master, the natural connection between the body and the brain must be cut off, so you can take over and impose your ideas of who you are or is going to be. Read more about that in hack #4.3 The toxic mix of physical and non-physical issues.

This idea is ridiculous because you do not know who you are nor how the body or brain functions. Besides, if you, for example, assume you are spiritual, this assumption is based on selected experiences produced by the brain. Hence you are nothing but a product fabricated and conducted by the brain via the experiences it creates. In other words, feelings do not come from the heart or somewhere else than the brain, which governs the body and what and where you appear to be.

For sure, you fall off the planet if you interfere with gravity. And you mess up the body when you disrupt or meddle with its ongoing communication with the brain. In short, in the game of duality, the brain is the game master. You cannot change it, but you have plenty of fun following the game master. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

Therefore, to feel good as someone in the game of the brain, you must step aside and let it do its thing. This does not mean you do not involve yourself but that you do not try to change anything. Like when you watch a movie. It is your involvement that makes it entertaining when you go with the plot as it is.

In other words, you are not a master but a servant. And you serve the brain by perceiving your reaction to the experiences it produces as ´it is what it is.´ That reveals your response is twofold, and since the world of the brain is dual, you are in sync with the brain. Being that you are best buddies with the brain, and that feels good. Read more about that in hack #4.4 The duality flow goes to non-duality.

If you do not want to play the game of duality, you are free to leave it. However, you cannot do that unless you play it. And since participating involves feeling it, we go on in the below by looking at the feelings that seem to attest to you being someone in a world of duality.

It is not done in an organised way, though. Alexius´ Enlightened Non-Teachings has nothing to prove because they know they are as illusionary as anything else in a world of duality. Yet, reading the below ragbag of clips from older unpublished articles, this acknowledgement may help you see what you believe in being is also an illusion.

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This article is not about enlightenment or the reality of oneness, but how to live with the nature of duality because you have chosen duality in place of non-duality. If you want to undo this decision entirely, you must live fully with negative and positive feelings. Fortunately, doing that is easy when you do not see negative feelings as bad but go with the interaction of negativity and positivity like you do with breathing in and out.

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You cannot breathe out before you breathe in and vice versa. In other words, you cannot have one without the other. That is how duality works. Everything comes in pairs. If you go with that, you feel complete. But if you try to divide the pairs into separate elements, you feel incomplete.

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To prevent being touched by the natural flow of feelings, you make sure everything in your environment is adjusted to the rules of Feng Shui or another totalitarian system. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

The world can be compared to a blindfold on your eyes. Nobody but yourself keeps the blindfold there, and you do it by having specific feelings of the world. Because of that, you cannot bid welcome that which cannot be felt, namely non-duality. When you do not perceive feelings to be specific, the blindfold starts to dissolve.

However, you cannot stop perceiving feelings to be definitive if you do not know them. In many cases, you hide psychological feelings to be accepted by society. And to make a love relationship last, you believe you must favour the attitudes accepted as love in preference to those not approved as loving.

Defending yourself towards specific feelings turns out to be a defence towards all of them. Therefore, since you do not feel anything, you simulate feeling something in the way you are supposed to. If something is so shocking that you are about to touch a genuine feeling, you burst into laughter to distance yourself from going with the flow of emotions, so you can fend off facing you do not love yourself.

To make a long story short: Even though the world only appears real due to feelings, most of them are suppressed and not known by the world. If they were, everybody could undo the feeling of being someone in a capsule of time and space.

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Since feelings are heavier than thoughts, they seem to be a hindrance to contact more refined energies. Yet, it is of no help to deny feelings and instead focus on their energies if you want to undo the belief in duality because it is based on feeling it.

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When you know you undo fear by not holding back your breath, but you keep doing that, you understand you have chosen to feel frightened. This is all you need to sense to make way for a change. Because when you realise you have made a choice that is bad for you, you set the body free to choose – and it only decides what is best for you. Thus wholly breath starts rolling. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

Most suppress negative thoughts because they do not seem to be in their favour when they try to impress their boss or a potential new girl/boyfriend, for example. In other words, most split up the constant interaction of negativity and positivity into elements to be used independently in stories to manipulate others. It is much easier to make others feel good about you when wrapping everything up in stories that distance yourself from negativity.

However, the main reason one suppresses negative thoughts is not because of others but for oneself. You are simply afraid of them. Negative thoughts in one´s childhood can be dangerous to express. In the case of Alexius, in his childhood, he was beaten by his father if he said or did something judged as offensive. So he did not dare to express his negative thoughts about being treated like that because he was afraid they would cause him to be further beaten up. Therefore, to not accidentally voice them, he suppressed them.

But just like the negative pole in electricity is as important as the positive one, you need negative thoughts as much as positive ones in a world of duality. If you suppress the negative ones, you deteriorate, whereas you blossom if you approve of them.

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Since that which is you is no different from that which is one, you may vaguely remember there is no more than that which is one. Thus may try to have one lover, one home, one god and so on to fake oneness in a world where there seems to be more than one. However, such a world can only be experienced due to contrasts, so everything comes in pairs. Therefore, since it is impossible to be faithful to only one, you get confused if you insist on singularity.

To walk, you need two legs. And to take one step forward, you must include the past because it is the building stone for your future step. Twofoldness is always the way in a world where there seems to be more than one. If you respect that, you honour to have chosen to believe there is such a world. Thus it can be undone.

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You do not breathe in and out to find a balance between expansion and contraction. Neither do you need to find a balance between body and brain. What you need is to let the brain do its thing so you, in a laid-back fashion, can enjoy being someone in a world of duality. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

Not facing both up and down, you will be mistaken about yourself. Feeling down without getting the interaction of up and down, you will find you are a freak. Mainly feeling up, and using it to deny feeling down, you fake normality.

But you do not feel neither normal nor abnormal if you go with the interaction of up and down like you go with breathing in and out, as going with the constant interplay of opposites, you are not definitive but relative.

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Often a person full of light has relationships with somebody more in the dark. Both probably use the other to see their complementary side. If this is not done unconsciously but consciously, they see the underworld and the overworld in the other.

Since it is easier to see your hidden side in someone that seems separated from you, there is nothing wrong in projecting that onto somebody else. The world is one giant projection anyway, and while you seem to be in such a world, it is much easier to see what you have separated from yourself in others. So go ahead and point your finger at others.

That is the fastest way to bring back home what you have disassociated yourself from. It is quicker than meditation or anything else. Read more about that in The YOU finger and the three ME fingers.

Neither hell nor heaven is part of the world you see. Nevertheless, they are part of duality – and if you want to stop using duality as a cover for non-duality, you must be willing to acknowledge all contrasts that appear to cover that which has no contrast, namely non-duality.

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You do not have to perceive yourself as stupid if you stumble over something. Instead, you can laugh about it. To do that you do not suppress the irritation you feel but perceive it as ´it is what it is.´ This reveals annoyance is coupled with calmness. Thus there is no reason to judge yourself as stupid or anything else for that matter. In other words, there does not seem to be something wrong with you when you go with the duality flow.

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All emotional problems are caused by you breaking up the polarity that defines duality. For example, you separate love from hate, so they seem independent of each other, and you, therefore, can have love without hate. But everything comes in pairs of opposites in a world of duality. So splitting them up into separate and distinct elements, you get the loneliness of separation, whereas going with the interaction of opposites, you have the togetherness of twofoldness.

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It´s very easy to choose not to store thoughts, so you are empty, if you don´t have a need to uphold a certain image of yourself.

If you are full of thoughts, you are busy assigning meaning to your experiences. However, none of your experiences means anything. Their only purpose is to entertain you. Being that, there is no need to look for thoughts to explain something. Hence you do not have a bad time. On the contrary, you feel amused. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

Suffering comes from the way you have decided to interpret something. Therefore, if you suffer, you have chosen to assign specific experiences with a meaning that makes you suffer.

That is not solved by changing your interpretation but by not insisting it is definitive. This occurs when perceiving your conditioned interpretation as ´it is what it is´ because that reveals it is not on its own. Instead, it is coupled with its counterpart. And since everything comes in pairs in a world of duality, you feel at home when you see your interpretation is twofold.

In other words, if you do not feel at home, your perception of the experiences created by the brain is out of sync. This is not corrected by letting go of the past, living in the now or coming from the heart. Such ideas are concepts of singularity, and all experiences of the brain are dual. Therefore, if your reaction to them is dualistic, you are in sync with the brain.

Fortunately, this is already so. You just hide it by insisting on having a distinct reaction to the experiences created by the brain. This you undo by perceiving your response to the past or now as ´it is what it is.´ That reveals it is not singular but twofold. Thus you feel at home.

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To feel is to separate. Thus you stop separating when you do not insist on feeling something specific. That is simply done by perceiving the meaning you have assigned to something as ´it is what it is.´ That reveals that what you have decided it means is not set in stone. Instead, it is complemented by its counterpart. So if you thought you were sad, it turns out you are happy/sad.

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To feel is to not exists because it takes two to feel something, and life is that which is one. In other words, it is not possible to feel something, but it seems possible to feel something if one imagines being in a world where there seems to be more than one. Can you feel it? Of course, you can. You are reading this. That means you think it is possible to be and have more than that which is one, and you keep this illusion ´real´ by feeling it.

To undo that mistake, first, you acknowledge what you feel. Second, you perceive your reaction to it as ´it is what it is.´ That reveals your response is not singular but twofold. Third, you do not focus on the two elements of your reaction but go with their interaction. By doing that, you are in the duality flow, where you feel so complete that, eventually, you forget to define yourself by duality. Read more about that in hack #4.4 The duality flow goes to non-duality.


NOTE: This article is part of hack #4.4 The duality flow goes to non-duality.