+ The basic self is relative to the brain and thus without an egoistic drive [draft]

Dialogue is avoided by the special self. It prefers monologue because it ratifies the feeling of being someone, who is in charge of its own life. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

When you perceive yourself not to be basic but special, you are constantly looking for somebody who you can manipulate into witnessing this (read more about that here). That is why the special self always needs to be with others o have appointments to look forward too. But as closeness may reveal the misery behind its story of greatness, the special self lives by the conventional rules of how to mimic togetherness and still keep a distance. A dinner party, for example, is set up in such a way that everybody appears to be close to each other, but the reality is that it is not so, because everybody is busy minding the table manners.

The special self expects others not to question its story of greatness but to adapt to it so they appear to be ordinary and itself to be original. This is, of course, to hide that it is does not feel good enough.

There are books about how to set up a dinner party and also about what to say so you can trick others into believing you care about them while manipulating them to give you what you need from them, which always is the same when you want to be special, namely their acknowledged of that.

The basic self, on the other hand, has no need to be acknowledged for being special. Hence it does not try to fit into collectively agreed concepts of how to be together, nor does it use these concepts to manipulate others to do and say something that attests to itself as important. The basic self has no reason for doing something other than it follows the instructions of the brain.

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Those who believe that they are special and independent beings with a free will are easily manipulated by one of the worlds many doctrines of how to be spiritual, socialistic, capitalistic and whatnot because they think they cannot be manipulated.

More importantly, a human, just like a car, functions by following the commands it gets and as the special self avoids to follow the natural impulses coming from the brain, it is bound to follow one of the worlds many speculative isms instead. Or rather to believe that it does so because, just like a car, it cannot make choose its direction itself. It is bound to follow the driver. Likewise, all humans are bound to follow the driver, namely the brain.

Yet, unlike a car, all humans have a consciousness that is free to perceive the drive as it sees fit, so in case of the special self it makes up a perception of it, where everything that does not fit into the concepts of socialism, for example, are excluded and it, therefore, seems to be following that and not the brain.

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The special self is always trying to escape something, but it does not know what. Neither will it ever know, because there is nothing to escape. It is an illusion that only seems real because it always looks for something to exclude so it can appear more special. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

Having one´s perception in sync with the stream of thoughts as it comes from the brain is like having the brain blown out for any unnecessary thought. It feels like being wholly absorbed by a TV show after having binge-watched it.

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When you in your childhood have learned that your parents know better, you are ready to grow up and serve the brain. This is not a choice, because what you believe to be is the brain and what you experience as others are created by it so there is nothing else to serve.

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The basic self does not belong to anyone but everyone because the basic self is the brain and everything that the basic self experiences to be, see, think and feel is made by it.

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If one’s perception is in sync with the flow of thoughts coming from the brain, experiences seem relative. Not being in sync with the flow of thoughts, experiences appear to be definitive. The former results in feeling free and the latter in feeling imprisoned.

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Watching a TV show, the brain is in its right element, which is to continually pass remarks and predict what comes next as if the show is not fictional but real. When not doubting or altering these comments but going with their flow, you are also in your right element, namely to follow the brain. But since it contains the sum of your most significant memories and that makes up what you believe to be (read more about that here), you are the brain and, therefore, not just a follower but a leader as well.

The brain renders a world where there seems to be more than one so you can be entertained by having an experience of being someone there. There is not something deeper to learn or attain, because it is all a fantasy – including that a brain renders something that someone experiences as well as there is anybody making this fantasy. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

Being in your right element, the illusionary wall in between a world where there seems to be more than one and that which is one seems so thin that you easily fall into a state of not-knowing. Being there the apparent difference between the flow of thoughts coming from the brain and the one being entertained by them it is not perceived to make a difference. Consequently, there is not someone definitive experiencing something in particular, not even how blissful it is to be nobody (read more about that here). This is not acknowledged before one returns to the consciousness of being somebody and memories of how blissful it is to be nobody start popping up.

But not being in your right element you always search for something special to make you feel good. Maybe you imagine becoming more spiritual will do it or that returning to your real self by peeling off the layers you have used so much time and effort to add will make you more authentic and thus more special.

There is no real self, however, to return to because any kind of self is an illusion constructed from out of nothing. No matter what you believe to be, it is only experienced to be so, because thoughts, like a binary code of nothing, are put together in such a way that they seem to manifest that.

Nevertheless, just like it is very entertaining to being someone in the illusionary world of a role-play when following the instructions of the game master, so is appearing to be someone in a world where there seems to be more than one when you follow the master of this game, namely the brain, and do not add or subtract something from the instructions you get.

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The basic self is not a definitive entity but someone relative to the brain and thus without an egoistic drive. The special self is also relative to the brain but not without ego, because contrary to the basic self it makes up a perception of the thoughts coming from the brain as if it is in charge of them and consequently of itself.

It is a wonder though, how it can go on believing that this is so because it is not even able to control ´its´ thoughts via meditation but needs alcohol, sex and drugs, for example, to make them go away from its awareness.

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If you make a perception of the thoughts coming from the brain that seems to make you more important than the thoughts imply, you are not in sync with the brain. As you insist that your perception is correct, the thoughts coming from the brain do not make you a happy but stubborn self. But perceiving the thoughts of the brain as suggestions to how you can respond to something, they do not seem to make you definitive. Thus you remain relative to the brain, which is the nature of the basic self.

Alexius, for example, basically is programmed to organise, but that does not mean that the brain expects him to do it in the rigid way of society, where everything is organised in squares and straight lines. It prefers the organic way of nature that hardly ever makes squares. Have you ever seen a square cloud?

It is only those, who have disconnected themselves from their basic nature which is to be aligned with the brain, that needs to organise everything so they appear to live by the right spiritual formula, for example(read more about that here).

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To be conscious is to separate. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

Being relative, the basic self does not perceive itself to be constant, but whatever it needs to be to get a loan, for example. The special self, on the other hand, needs to stick to its image of being someone definitive, and convince the bank that it is special enough to get a loan.

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The basic self never gets disappointed by somebody because they are not the ones perceived to be the reason for what it is going on. The brain is, and as it always rewards the basic self with happiness for making a perception that relates to the experiences it produces as they are and not how they could be, the basic self has no reason to be disappointed. Mainly, though, because it does not expect its action to result in something specific but whatever the brain has planned.

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Within the context of a world where there seems to be more than one, the basic self is everyone and no-one. As it, therefore, is relative, there is no specific self to doubt, whereas the special self, which insists on being someone definitive always has doubts about itself.

That is probably why it likes to show off as self-assured and in a wise fashion point out there must be a real self choosing between being the basic or special self. It is, however, only within the reality of a world where there seems to be more than one there seems to be a choice, but as there is no more than that which is one since it is formless and therefore endless, such a world is not real but a fantasy made by nobody with nobody in it. Just like a dream is a fantasy made by nobody and with nobody in it.

When there is nothing to hope for, what you believe to be in a world where there seems to be more than one is no more, because it is built on the hope that there is more than that which is one.

In other words, regardless of what you believe to be, you are nothing and thus do not have something to hope for. Consequently, the reading of Alexius´ Enlightened Non-Teachings works for you if it seems to result in hopelessness. See also the hack No Hope = Oneness, which you can find in Extra Duality Hacks.

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When you really feel something you are nothing but that. Consequently, there is nothing else to contrast what you feel and thus not something to define it, nor you. That is why most avoid to really feel something by mentally understanding and/or justifying it. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

In a state of not-knowing,* every sound is an entirely new experience because there is nobody going down memory lane to find experiences that seem comparable to the present one so they are not shaped by the past. The same applies to sights, feelings, and tastes.

This is not something you are aware of though, and you will never know if it is so because you are in a state of not-knowing.* Yet it seems likely because that state is over when you start to search your memory bank for something to help you categorise what you hear, see, feel or taste.

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The duality hacks do not detach you from feelings in the sense that they are experienced as something distant. On the contrary, when you return from a state of not-knowing* to the consciousness of being someone definitive, they will seem so close and powerful. Since they are no longer perceived as something but nothing, you enjoy this intensity of nothing, regardless it appears in the shape of sadness or happiness. In other words, you are indifferent to the supposed difference between the contrasts making up a world of duality.

Should you forget that experiences are not something but nothing and focus on the apparent tangibility of them, the worries that this seems to cause can be used to ignite a take off to the empty breath, provided your anxiety is unedited. And since this brings you back in a state of not-knowing,* there is nobody to judge the apparent difference between the experience of sadness and happiness, for example, to make a difference.

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Extraordinary experiences, for example glimpses of the enlightenment of that which is one, seem to be at a premium for the special self. Yet it seldom experiences anything but the ordinary, because to prevent its special image from cracking, it must fence off unfamiliar experiences.

If something uncontrollable like glimpses of enlightenment should enter into the controlled world of the special self, it will ignore it, wait for it to be over, then suppress the memories of it, and return to its old life.

If it accidentally happens, that a glimpse of enlightenment slips through a crack in its armour of specialness, it compares the unfamiliar experience to its familiar memories, so the unknown becomes well-known and therefore seems to confirm what it believes to be.

You can read about how to have glimpses of enlightenment in Perceiving the world as symbols of the four aspects of enlightenment – or how to have glimpses of enlightenment.

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Binge-reading Alexius´ Enlightened Non-Teachings you become a basic self who happily reads it again and again until it at times forgets that it is defined as a self and thus is in the bliss of not knowing what and where it is. That is until it forgets to leave this state of not-knowing and therefore become selfless. Hence nothing appears to hide there never has been or will be more than that which is one since it is formless and therefore endless. This is also why this does not happen step by step. It does not happen at all, because it takes more than one for something to happen.


*) You can learn how to ignite a take-off to the empty breath and thus be in the bliss of a state of not-knowing in hack #4.3 Uncontrolled speed leads to a state of not-knowing.


NOTE: This article is part of hack #4.2 The basic self versus the special one, which is still in the process of being written.