+ Perceiving that shit happens is freedom [draft]

The special self is to be compared to a con man. The more it can make others believe that its show is real, the less it doubts itself. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

For the basic self, it is the process of doing something that is enjoyable, whereas the special self perceives it as something that must be endured until the result is achieved. So when the special self paints a door, for example, it finds no joy in doing it, but in imagining others admiring the result. So it works very hard to make it look perfect.

As the opinion of others is of no concern for the basic self, the joy of the process is not disturbed by splashes of paint on the wall next to the door. In the future, they will remind it of how fun it was to paint the door.

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Being process and not result minded has nothing to do with the speculative concept of living in the now. During a process, you look at what was done in the past so you can plan what to do in the future, whereas being in the now excludes the past and the future plus other things judged to disturb you from being in this numb state of mind.

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The basic self never tries to appear professional, so if it does, it is the way the brain has set it up. The special self, on the other hand, always tries to be perfect because it does not believe, it is the thoughts of the brain that carries it but the rules of society, which are meant to suppress natural instincts in favour of a spotless appearance.

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The special self thinks it takes care of itself, and as that feels time-consuming it is always fear to miss out something important and thus not be part of its community. The basic self, on the other hand, perceives itself to be hooked up with the brain, and since that is the one producing the experience of itself as well as others and their experience of being somebody in a world where there seems to be more than one, it cannot be anything but part of that. Consequently, it has nothing to miss as long as it believes in what the experiences of the brain imply that it is.

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Like a self-driving car, the basic self follows the instruction that it receives without favouring anybody in specific. Thus it automatically goes for what is in the best interest of everyone.

The special self, on the other hand, always perceives the instructions coming from the brain so that they appear to be about what is in its own best interest.

Should others be hurt in its pursuit to get as much as possible for as little as possible at anybody’s expense, it lays the blame on somebody else and states it as a fact by saying »Look what you made me do.«

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As the special self always waits for something better, it is stuck in a prison of expectations. The basic self, on the other hand, hopes for nothing and therefore free from the fear of not getting enough. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

Just like a self-driving car, the basic self, as well as the special version of it, goes where it is told to go. But unlike a self-driving car, the self has a consciousness that can choose how to perceive, where it goes. Contrary to the basic self, the special one perceives everything to be personal.

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For the special self everything is first and foremost about what it believes to be itself, so when a relative has been injured in a traffic accident, for example, the typical response would be »How could you do this to me.«

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What you believe to be, consists of nothing but mechanical parts arranged, like the ones and zero in a stream of binary code, so they can move in alignment with the instructions it gets from the brain based on the signals it claims to receive from the sensors of the body (read more about that here).

Even though all the instructions are based on what is in the best interest for the whole, since all experiences of it is a construction of the brain, the consciousness, the brain has implemented in what is believed to be you, may want to perceive the instructions so they appear to be about what is your best interest.

As that perception seems to imply, it is possible to become and get more, you go for it. But being and having anything is an illusion because what and where you believe to be is just as unreal as what you appear to be and have in a game like, for example, Monopoly.

Just like nations is a mental concept, so is being Spanish, English, a human or anything at all.

Yet knowing this and that every experience, therefore, is make-believe, it is fun to follow the rules and go where the throw of the dice tells you to go, instead of trying to make it look like it is a personal choice.

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The special self is continuously on the lookout for more love, realisations or whatever makes it appear to be and have more than others. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

When you appear to fail in something it is not because you are not good enough, but because that is the way it was meant to be played out. For the same reason, it is not due to strong will power, that you manage to lose weight when you follow a specific diet. Will power only works in regards to keep up your perception of the way something is enacted.

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The thoughts of the basic and special self are fundamentally the same because there are no other thoughts than those produced by the brain. They are very simple and like the chance cards in a game purely meant to entertain you. But as the special self is looking for a deeper meaning, it makes up a perception of them, so it appears as if there is more.

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It is only the special self, who has a need to question everything and urges others to do the same. The basic self does not have such a requirement. It is to be compared to a car in Monopoly, that never asks who it is but goes where the throw of the dice tells it to go. And it makes no difference whether it is told to go to a place considered a prison or a free spot. Everything is fine as it is (read more about that here).

The throw of the dice also determines where the special self goes, but it always makes up stories so that it in retrospect always seems to be in charge of its own life.

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Since our experience of the world, where we appear to be somebody, is fabricated by the brain (read more about that here), we feel connected when we follow the rules of the brain and unconnected when we try to change them.

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The special self likes the concepts of ´letting go´ because it seems to confirm, that it is an independent person, who decides what and when to do something, so that even though it chooses to ´let go´ it still feels in control. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

The special self wants to compare everything new with something old so that the present seems to be conditioned by the past, which has been edited to make it look like it was caused by the special self.

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In the past, the special self set up a story full of hate to use as the foundation for how to perceive the present, so it seems to justify its hate and to confirm the judgment of others as evil. And since the past always appears to repeat itself, the special self, therefore, can rest assured that it is what it believes to be.

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The special self splits up its perception of others in regards to its concepts of right and wrong and then expects they hide or correct what it has labelled as wrong so that it is not bothered by it.

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Because the special self has fabricated a story in which it is in charge of its own life independently of the brain, it feels lost if it does not experience to be connected with something else, preferably something higher. Getting likes on Facebook will also do. But no matter how many it gets, it is never enough because its independence is based on the idea that there must be more.

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According to the special self, there must be something bigger, that will relieve it from its troubles because if not, everything seems to be hopeless. Yet hopelessness is what sets it free from the future and thus from worrying about it.

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The special self does not survive torture, but the basic self does, as It has neither added something special to itself, so there is nothing to take away. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

If the special self has to wait for something, it starts to think what it could have done to prevent it, because this kind of speculation enhances the belief it is in control. But as the basic self has no need to believe so, it simply perceives the waiting time for what it is, namely a break to enjoy.

Hence it does get stressed but rest assured that the brain will make sure the rest of the day will be just as beautiful.

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As the basic self perceives every moment for what it is there is nothing to look forward to and therefore not something to cause stress. This the special self considers as very peculiar because it always wants to achieve more, including more peace and less stress.

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There are many articles in the news pointing out that hardly any part of the earth is untouched by the damaging impacts of humanity. But there are very few pointing out that hardly any part of a human is untouched by the detrimental ways physicists, psychologists and new agers label every nook and cranny of it so that most feel compelled to adjust their perception of themselves to these rigid definitions instead of the script the brain makes.

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The approach of the basic self can be compared to buying an album from an artist and listen to it all, whereas the special self prefers to stream the album so it can exclude everything from it that does not fit its special taste (read more about that here).

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A game like Monopoly has the same goal as the special self, namely to win by taking everything from everybody else. This is not the goal of the basic self, because it has no intention of being or having something, that sets it apart from the whole.

It does not know the concept of individuality. Nor does it know, that the special self thinks, it is possible to do things in its own way and pace because, just like in Monopoly, everybody, regardless the colour of their car, has to move by the dice (read more about that here).

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There are many ways to perceive something. When you perceive it as shit happens, you are in sync with the moment, and as the brain has constructed it to make you happy, that is what you feel. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

Whether the special self convinces you to indulge in or refrain from sex, the purpose is the same, namely, to enhance the belief that you are in charge of your own life.

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The special self hates being told what to do. If it cannot avoid it, it makes up a story that in retrospect shows it as detached or something else that makes it appear to have been in control.

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In a world of duality, everything comes in pairs. So to experience love, for example, you must also know what hate feels like. Consequently, you cannot feel the happiness of being the basic self without sadness. But as they are two sides of the same coin, the basic self knows that when it feels sad, happiness is also there.

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The legs that seem to make you run in a dream are not yours, because your legs are at rest in your bed. Likewise what you appear to be in a world where there seems to be more than one is not that which is you. It rests in that which is one, and as it takes more than one to be somewhere, it is nowhere. Yet it is also everywhere because oneness is formless and therefore endless.

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Alexius is together with you and everybody else no matter what and where you appear to be. This does not mean he is at one with everybody, as that requires more than one. But it means, that he never miss anybody.

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Being in the basic self does not necessarily mean that you have a fit body. If so it would be easy to perceive everything as shit happens. Alexius body, for example, has a chronic inflammation in the lungs and he has had several operations in the heart, although he never has been smoking and always been eating healthy and doing exercises. One leg is longer than the other, and one of his eyes hardly works. He has rhinitis, IBS and whatnot. The list goes on.

Most of the time he does not try to change what cannot be altered. However, sometimes he turns into the special self in an attempt to make things better. That is until the frustrations coming from never feeling good enough makes him settle for the perception shit happens and thus feel good enough just being the basic self.

This should not be understood as you do not do anything for your body when you rest in the basic self. Regardless you are the basic or special self, you follow the instructions of the brain, which most likely direct you to do something for your body when it is needed. The attitude of the special self, however, is different from that of the basic one. The special self perceives it as it is in control of the body, which can be heavy work, whereas the basic self perceives to be controlled by the brain, which always feels as it is light as a feather.

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Those into New Age teachings may accept that they are not their body, but never that they are not somebody at all. Fortunately, such acceptance is not necessary. In fact, it is not possible, because there is nobody to accept it.

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Those who think we are here to learn something believe they can limit that which we are because only as somebody definitive do we seem to be able to learn something and we are not definitive but the formlessness of oneness. Fortunately, there is no need to learn anything to reveal that. On the contrary, what is needed is to unlearn everything because that which we are cannot learn anything since it is that which is one and it takes more than one to learn something.


NOTE: This article is part of hack #4.2 The basic self versus the special one.