CANCELLEX Some of it not used [DRAFT]

Willingness to feel the emotions that seem to scare us reveals that they are not something but nothing. Like the sounds, you hear walking on an empty street do not scare you when you turn around and see they come from the wind playing with the leaves. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen

The body functions the best without mental concepts of balance, love, spirituality and whatnot inflicted upon it. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

PART XXX
The moods that you like and perceive to reflect who you are, have been materialised in your body – or rather in the way you choose to perceive it. Thus these states of mind can be recalled when something troubles you. But since you also have projected the emotions you do not like onto the body, parts of it might seem to fight your favourite mood.

That is unless you discard the link you have made between physical and psychological feelings and are willing to be in the emptiness that arises from not your own conditioning to feel something specific. It may seem scary at first, but there is nothing to link it to since you are in a void. Thus you realise, when there is not something specific, there is not something to cause problems. Thus you are in the bliss of nothing.

Applying the duality hacks, your conditioned expectations to what you should feel are undone, so you can be in the bliss of nothing.

That being said, just like a pencil needs an eraser to undo its scribblings, you need a duality hack to cancel the link you have made between physical and psychological feelings. This could, for example, be the empty breath.** It is not something but nothing, so that is what it sees. In other words, your link is not acknowledged as something, neither is whatever it links, so you are in the bliss of nothing. See hack #5.3 ´The empty breath´, and the bliss of not believing to be someone for more info about the empty breath** and hack #5.2 Uncontrolled speed leads to a state of not-knowing for how to connect with it.

When you react to something, it is not due to what others do or say but how you have conditioned yourself by linking physical and psychological feelings. It is, therefore, not what they say or do you want to go away but how it triggers the pain of this link in you.

When the body is not used to materialise the feelings you believe establish what you want to be and hide those feelings not supporting it, it is free from your dictatorship. So are you because then the body is not an instrument for conditioning anymore.

Having conditioned yourself to feel something specific in case of specific events, so the perception of yourself as special is upheld, you always are on the lookout for specific reactions in the body that can confirm this.

This automatically happens when connecting with the empty breath** (or applying one or more of the other duality hacks) because the state of not-knowing that this entails wipes the slate clean, so you return to the conscious experience of being someone as the basic self.* Since the brain´s script cannot be changed – only the perception of it – this does not mean you are free to do what you want. But you are free to perceive the script as it is instead of compulsively making up perceptions that seem to change it to something you have conditioned yourself to believe is better.

In sync with the script, you do not try to become happy from being and having something special because you are continuously injected with shots of happiness by the brain for supporting it.

As everything seems the same when being happy, there is no diversity from which you can choose something to be more exciting than something else, and thus no hope of something better to come. You may, therefore, find being in a constant state of happiness to be boring and choose to improve the basic self by making a perception of it in which you seem to be the centre of exciting things as a special self.

This is the end of happiness because now feeling good depends on being and having something special, and it never lasts. But also because the special self is founded on the idea that there must be something better. So no matter what it achieves in being and having, it is never good enough. There must be something better.

Fortunately, the frustration of never finding something better can, if unedited, ignite a take-off to the empty breath,** so you again have the slate wiped clean and return to the conscious experience of being someone definitive as the basic self and thus are injected with shots of happiness. Eventually, you are so happy that there is no more to ask for. Hence the belief that it is possible to be and have more than that which is one is undone.

Since that is the whole purpose of Alexius´ Enlightened Non-Teachings and since being conditioned or not requires more than one, it really does not matter what you are or whether you are tense. Yet it may matter in the process of having the belief that it is possible to be and have more than that which is one is undone. Without conditioning and a tense body, the process of it is so much more fun. Fortunately, you can have your cake and eat too. You can keep any conditioning if you perceive it as it is what it is* because then its built-in expectation of a particular outcome is undone, so you are happy no matter what that is or if you are tense or not.

So not need to make it your new purpose to become free of conditioning and tensions or anything else, for that matter. Rather stick to the undoing of the belief that it is possible to be and have more than that which is one because there is no behaviour or anything else to get rid of as that takes more than one.

In hack #4.3 To be a basic self is to be good enough, we talk about the awkward sense of something unfamiliar that comes when psychological and physical feelings are combined into a psychosomatic disorder. If not trying to change the awkwardness into something more pleasant, the unedited energy of it ignites a take-off to the empty breath** that replaces the pain with the painless feeling of emptiness

This may at first be experienced as more disturbing than a psychosomatic disorder because it sets aside the sense of being someone. But if that is not avoided, you are walking on clouds of bliss.

INTERLUDE
When you suppress the feelings you perceive to be wrong, the ones seen to be correct are also excluded because, in a world of duality, everything comes in pairs. Since you always look for approval, you do not suppress that. But since it is paired with shame, you cannot help but feel the embarrassment of being an oppressor.

To distance yourself from this feeling, you project it partially on others, your father or boss, for example. But doing so, their approval only seems to be partial. Thus you feel, you are not good enough. If, however, perceiving that as it is what is, it does not result in feeling inadequate. Thus the need to blame somebody for putting you down is gone.

The more you exclude/suppress, the more inadequate you feel. Unfortunately, you probably conclude that to resolve that, you need to eliminate even more. And on it goes until you are so restricted by your editing of yourself and others that the built-up frustrations ignite a take-off to the empty breath.** It wipes the slate clean, so you perceive everything as it is what it is,* and thus are equally entertained by so-called bad things as good ones.

 

When you justify a feeling with something you judge to be wrong, you disguise the feeling behind a mental story of being treated unfairly and thus feel huffy. But you only pretend to feel this because it fits in your story which hides from yourself and others that you actually feel frightened.

You are afraid of everybody because, again and again, you have avoided the awareness of what you judge to be feelings of darkness in yourself by projecting them on others. Hence you feel guilty and constantly go in fear of their retaliation. This would be too shameful to tell when you feel attacked, so you invent a story that justifies that you feel something else caused by somebody. Hence they appear to be treating you bad and you to be innocent and good, so you can conclude there are no feelings of darkness in yourself.

This set up makes you feel stressed, which you, of course, blame somebody else for by making up a story that disguises you are stressed, so you can perceive others to be disturbed and you as relaxed, while you stresses on, and, therefore, maintain the tensions in the body and its attitude of attack/defence. Read more about that here. Everybody else knows you always look for something to attack, but they do not say anything because they do the same. That is why they recognise it in you.

To hide that you hate the whole world, you meet in special groups where everybody treats each other per a collectively agreed way of being united, for example by hugging and sharing. It is not love, though, but a wish to hide hatred that unites the group. This nobody wants to acknowledge, least of all they want to speak about in the group because anybody who does not have the self-control to censor themselves to only speak and act within the language of love established by the group, or its guru, is expelled from. And then there is nowhere to go where you can find relief from your despair.

 

When a ball is coming your way, it´s a natural reflex to respond and following such reflexes is pure fun.

When a ball is coming your way, it is an automatic reflex to respond to it. Automatically following such reflexes is natural and invokes the memory of how easy it is when you are nobody. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

PART 4:
Sometimes a doctor may check the function of a body by knocking on special points to see if the involuntary movements – also called reflexes – works. But, actually, everything you appear to do in the world where there seems to be more than one is involuntary movements. That is unless you work very hard to make a perception of them, so what and where you appear to be looks like it is your choice.

To make the formlessness of that which is you appear as if it is someone special is not easy. It takes many years of going to school plus many special lessons to learn how to exclude what you judge not to be special.

An image of you as someone special is fabricated by postulating automatic reflexes to be of your own choice and suppressing the experience of the natural reflexes not fitting into the image of you, that you want the world to see.

To fabricate this perception, the behaviour of automatic reflexes is translating into something that seems to be an autonomously choice of someone specific. And by learning how to suppress the reflexes that do not fit into this image of being unique and independent, you become a person who seems to do everything by their own choice. In contrast, those judged to be outside of you seem to be doing things against or favouring you by their choice.

Undoing the belief in being someone special is like taking a step into the unknown – but as life cannot be known, that is exactly where you will find it.

The specific appearance of you that, like a puzzle, has been put together through trials and error is believed to be separated from what you have decided not to be and thus perceive to be outside of you so that it seems the world consists of you and different individuals living an autonomous life.

When this is believed to be a game that you are playing, it is easy to play along, but when believed to be real, it is hard work because you always have to suppress the natural flow to appear as someone living your own special life in your own way and pace.

It is so much easier just to go with the flow of the natural reflexes. It also feels so much better because going with the flow, you feel fulfilled, so you do not need to be special. Being nobody is great because then there is not somebody else – and that is so peaceful.

 

Alexius uses no techniques for being connected with the empty breath or having glimpses of enlightenment. It happens by itself. He does not know how come. But when this is possible for him, he is convinced it is for you too. The duality hacks will reset your conditioning, so you do not think about the empty breath but automatically connect with it, and thus have glimpses of enlightenment. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

The above is not meant to imply that you need to go through certain phases to bid welcome the enlightenment of that which is one. Alexius went straight to the enlightenment of that which is one. Yet, he bounced back to the experience of being someone definitive in a world where there seems to be more than one before he reached the point of no return. See The ins and outs of a black hole, or Nothing can stop you on Highway One except your belief in a world where there seems to be more than one.

In the experience of being someone in a tangible world, he changes between being the basic self, the special self and in a state of not-knowing. In the latter, he has glimpses of the enlightenment of that which is one, which you can read about in hack #6.2 The enlightenment of that which is one cannot be found in a world where there seems to be more than one, but glimpses of it can.

Alexius uses no techniques for this. Yet, he presents some strategies that can facilitate it. See the article Perceiving the world as symbols of the four aspects of enlightenment – or how to have glimpses of enlightenment.

Being someone who is to be compared to the enlightenment of that which is one, he knows there is no more than that which is one. So he is not longing to ´return to´ the formlessness of oneness but enjoys pretending to be what and where he is not – just like within the context of where he pretends to be, he sometimes has fun pretending to be somebody in the virtual world of a game. See hack #1.3 Pretending to be someone definitive is liberation.

In the enlightenment of that which is one, there are no experiences of a world where there seems to be more than one. Nor are there any memories of them because to remember something requires more than one and there is no more than that which is one. For the same reason, there is no experiences at all.

When he has had his fun doing that, he intends to bid welcome the enlightenment of that which is one with no intention of returning to the consciousness of being someone in a world where there seems to be more than one.

 

APPENDIX:
It is not something personal when the special self blames everybody for being wrong. They are just a means to get rid of whatever the special self perceives as unacceptable in itself so that it can feel good by making them look bad.

Suppose the special self accuses someone of being a dictator and states it by saying you are evil. In that case, it does not necessarily mean that the special self wants to hide a secret wish in itself to dominate. It is more likely that it wants to hide what perceiving someone to be a dictator makes it feel. It could be anger or desperation. Or maybe stubbornness that the special self needs to deny in itself to maintain the belief in being open-minded. It could also be hatred or a basic feeling of not being good enough, which it wants to hide by blaming a perceived dictator for having caused by being unjust.

But whatever feeling the special self excludes from its consciousness of who it is by blaming somebody else for having caused it, the feeling will return to its awareness as a feeling caused by itself when there is nobody to blame for it. To avoid that, the special self is always on the lookout for a scapegoat. For example, if the spouse that it divorced was its primary scapegoat, it probably continues an inner conversation with the spouse until a replacement is found.

This is not to say that one should stop blaming others because if you do that, you miss a perfect opportunity to see what you hide in yourself by blaming them. Having exposed it, you can deal with it where it is made, namely in yourself. Having done that, you do not need to hide and thus not to spent time finding scapegoats to feel okay.

There is probably no faster way to expose a problem of yours than to blame others for having caused it. There probably is no quicker way to resolve the exposed issue than to use its unpleasant energy for a take-off to the empty breath. Doing that, it only takes it one second to wipe the slate clean (read more about that here), so you are restored as the basic self and feels renewed. You do not even have to understand the exposed problem or know what it is to ignite a take-off to the empty breath. All you need is to feel the frustration entirely.

See Take-offs to ´the empty breath´ for how to ignite a take-off to the empty breath. And see The YOU finger and the three ME fingers for how thankful you should be for those you have blamed for your problems because they have helped you expose them so they can be used to ignite a take-off to the empty breath.

And check hack #4.2 Being a self or no-self to learn more about having the slate wiped clean, so you start afresh as the basic self that repeatedly is injected with shots of happiness by the brain. Or go with the duality flow to feel complete. See hack #4.4 The duality flow goes to non-duality.

 

 

BASIC – SPECIAL SELF

The special self* believes everything would be much better if others would listen to it and follow its lead. Yet, it seldom has a solution to the things it points out as wrong – at least not one that can be implemented. Its primary focus is to find faults in others so they can be blamed for having caused its negative feelings, and they, therefore, are disassociated from the special self, which thus appears to be positive.

Since blaming others for its own negativity makes the special feel guilty, it feels relieved when somebody else is convicted for a crime. This makes it feel that the guilty one has been found, and it, therefore, does not need to fear being punished for making others wrong to make itself look right.

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It is crucial for the special self not to feel any emotion as it is so that the image it has made of itself does not crack. Hence it suppresses all feelings and become so numb that it cannot feel anything but the fear of them surfacing. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

Should you have conditioned yourself to feel relaxed when you hear a specific kind of music, you find yourself as a part of a story, where you feel what you should feel every time you hear this music. In other words, you do not feel what you feel but what you imagine you should feel in this situation. And as most of what you believe in feeling rests on your conditioning, you are hardly ever in touch with your emotions but what you have been conditioned to feel. This suits the special self very well. It does not want to feel its feelings as they are, but how it imagines them according to the story, it has made up of who it is.

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The basic self knows there is no need to unite anything in the world because all of its experiences are produced in the brain, so they are already side by side – just like everything is together on your hard disk or in the cloud even though they seem to be separated on your screen. The special self, on the other hand, believes all experiences are created by itself from here and there and thus not together. Hence it tries to control them to unite them or create some kind of consistency or synchronicity. But since every experience is made and regulated by the brain and not you, this is impossible.

But it is possible to make a perception of the experiences created by the brain so that everything that does not attest to you being independent is excluded from it. Since the perception of the excluded is dumped in the experience of vulnerable parts of the body, the special self ends up having psychosomatic problems.

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In the past, the special self made up a story of hate and revenge to use as the foundation for how to perceive the present so that it seems to justify its hatred and confirm its past judgment of others as evil. And since the past, therefore, appears to repeat itself, the special self can rest assured in its perception of itself as good and others as bad.

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If somebody triggers an old feeling of rejection in the special self, it first interprets this as an attack on its entity, next it justifies feeling rejected with the attacker. Since the focus, therefore, seems to be on the attacker, the feeling appears to be there and, thus, to have left the special self. Should the attacker expose this projection, the special self points out something from the past that makes the attacker feel guilty. In this way, the special self succeeds in feeling good by making somebody else look bad.

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