+ The special self is completely out of sync with the present [under construction]

When the special self sees this image, it will need to make up a story that hides what it actually feels in this moment, so it is comparable to its concept of right and wrong. The basic self on the other hand has nothing to hide, as it has no concepts to live up to, so it sees what is sees. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

Following the special self does not come natural. Much speculation about what to do and say is needed, as well as a search for who you are. But following the basic self this is not necessary when, since there is no special personality with a need to be more than what and where it is instructed to be by the brain.

Neither is there a desire to know these instructions before they are needed to sync you with the present moment. In plain words, following the basic self you do not know what is around the next corner before you need to know that, which in most cases you do not need before you are there.

But the special self is a control freak, so it needs to know everything in advance. Thus it digs into the past to compile fragments of it into a speculative view of what is around the next corner. Though this in most cases is not accurate, the special self compares what is seen around the next corner with the past and concludes it is alike by excluding from the present what does not fit into this comparison.

Nobody but the special self, which is made by not being inclusive but exclusive, needs to have peace, love or anything else added in order to feel complete.

Hence the special self can go on  believing, that it knows so much – or at least will do when it has excluded everything that avoids perfect health, wise realisations and being in the now. But the more it excludes, the more it dissociates itself from the nature of life, which is inclusive – read more about that here – wherefore it excludes itself from feeling the goodness of life.

One should think that the special self from this would deduct, that it is better not to be exclusive. But just like those hitting their children do not stop, when they see it does not work as intended, and instead conclude that they must hit them more and harder, the special self concludes that it must be more exclusive in a deep way in order to find happiness inside..

The special self probably makes up a very special story about what is happening in this instance, although nothing is happening but a woman is having fun showing off and a man finding ways to best capture it. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

The speculative behaviour of the special self does not change anything in the present moment though other than how it is perceived to be. The special story, it makes up of the present moment, courses the special self to be slightly out of sync with the physicality of the present moment, so that it must run to catch the bus, for example.

If you have disassociated yourself from the what you judge to be bad, you will not feel bliss but sorrow. The same applies if you have made yourself bad by excluding the good thoughts, because negative and positive thoughts are equally needed, as when they meet they cancel out each other, so that you feel the bliss of emptiness.

Mentally speaking the special self is totally out of sync with the present, which has nothing to do with the popular concept of being in the now, as that excludes the past and the future, whereas the present includes every thought, feeling and activity that appears to be in a the moment, regardless from where the thoughts and feelings seem to come from or if they are so-called negative or positive. Read more about that in hack #3.3 Life is inclusive and not exclusive.

Should you wonder, if what you experience is in sync with present or not, you are not in sync, because in the present you are not different from the experienced.

Whenever you want to know something, you have been eaten the fruits of good and evil from the tree of knowledge, and since this division keeps you divided you never feel complete.

When the apparent difference between you and the experienced is not perceived to make a difference, there is nothing but the bliss of not knowing what and where you are. This does not require closed eyes or anything else than the willingness to not be someone definitive. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

Thus you always wonder about what is hidden around the next corner and try to solve this uncertainty by filling the gaps with knowledge from the past instead of having your anxiety igniting a take-off to the empty breath, that simply wipes the slate clean, so that everything new is written there means the same, because although everything appear to be as divided as before, the differences are not perceived to make a difference.

In a state of not-knowing there is nobody to manifest thoughts and feelings, as if they belong to somebody.

As this means the experienced and the experiencer is recognised as the same, there is nobody to know this. In other words, you are in a state of not-knowing, unless you expect to experience its bliss of nothingness, because this expectation is based on the belief that the apparent differences make a difference.

NOTE: This article is part of hack #4.3 The basic self versus the special one.