++ The special self is completely out of sync with the present [under development]

When the special self sees this image, it will need to make up a story that hides what it actually feels in this moment, so it is comparable to its concept of right and wrong. The basic self on the other hand has nothing to hide, as it has no concepts to live up to, so it sees what is sees. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

Following the special self does not come natural. It requires much speculation about what to do and say, as well as a searching for who you really are. But following the basic self this is not necessary, because there is no special personality with a need to be and do something of its own. Thus it just follows the instructions coming from the brain

Neither is there a desire to know these instructions before they are needed to sync the basic self with the present moment. In plain words, following the basic self you do not know what is around the next corner before you need to know it, which in most cases you do not need before you are there.

Nobody but the special self, which is made by not being inclusive but exclusive, needs to have peace, love or anything else added in order to feel complete.

But as the special self is a control freak, it needs to know everything in advance. Hence it digs into the past to collect fragments from there into a speculative view of what it expect to see around the next corner. In most cases though its prediction is not entirely correct, which it solves by manipulating its perception of the present or the past or both so they seem to be alike, and its prediction therefore to be correct.

Hence the special self go on believing that it is in control, because it knows so much – or at least is gonna do, when it has excluded everything that prevents it from being perfect. But the more it excludes, the more it dissociates itself from the nature of life, which is inclusive – read more about that here – and thus excludes itself from feeling safe.

One should think, that the special self therefore would realise, it is better not to be exclusive. But just like those hitting their children conclude they must hit harder if it does not work as intended, the special self concludes it must be more exclusive in order to feel safe.

When the apparent difference between you and the experienced is not perceived to make a difference, there is nothing but the bliss of not knowing what and where you are. This does not require closed eyes or anything else than the willingness to not be someone definitive. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

Thus it keeps excluding something that it considers to hide what is around the corner instead of using its anxiety to ignite a take-off to the empty breath, that simply wipes the slate clean, so that everything written there henceforth means the same, because although everything still appear as divided like before, differences are not perceived to make a difference.

Should you wonder, if your experience is in sync with present, it is out of sync, because in the present you are the experienced.

As this means the experienced and the experiencer is recognised as the same, there is nobody to know this. In other words, you are in a state of not-knowing, unless you expected to experience its bliss of nothingness, because the expectation is founded on the belief that the experienced is different from the experiencer.

No matter how much the special self believes to exclude from its experience of the present, the moment remains the same
. This the special self solves by rewrite the moment into a story that glorifies itself as the one in charge of. But as that means it is out of sync with the reality of the present moment, it must go faster to catch the bus, for example.

Though the body of the special self may seem to be in sync with the present moment, mentally speaking it is totally out of sync with the present, which has nothing to do with the popular concept of being in the now, as that excludes the past and the future, whereas the present includes every thought, feeling and activity that appears to be in a the moment, regardless from where the thoughts and feelings seem to come or if they are so-called negative or positive. Read more about that in hack #3.3 Life is inclusive and not exclusive.

Negative and positive thoughts are equally needed in order for them to meet and thus cancel out each other, so there is nothing left but the bliss of emptiness. Read more about that here. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

Whenever you think you know something, you have eaten the fruits of good and evil from the tree of knowledge, so that you and those you consider to be like-minded can be perceived as good and others as evil. This results in uncertainty, because it always feels as if something is missing no matter how much money or love you get.

The only solution is to this is to not be exclusive but inclusive, so good and evil can meet where they were separated, namely in the special self, and thus cancel out each other – read more about that here – so there is nothing to define you as special, wherefore there is nothing to distract you from happily following the commands of the brain and thus be in sync with the present, as it is made by the brain.

NOTE: This article is part of hack #4.3 The basic self versus the special one.