The special self tries to control thoughts whereas the basic self serves them [draft]

Nothing appears to be good enough for the special self because it interprets the noise in its head as a voice whispering ´there must be more.´.Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

The special self is an expert in flattery, which it uses to manipulate others into feeling appreciated. It wants them to become so dependent on the compliments that they are willing to submit to special self to get more.

This does not work on the basic self, however. It has no need for approval because it does not perceive itself to be special but what the brain wants it to be.

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That it is possible to make things happen through manipulation of thoughts – for example by visualising them – is something the special self likes to believe, as that makes it appear to be in control of its life.

But it is like thinking the TV show you turn on by hitting the remote control is made by you. Somebody else has made the show, and the only thing you can change is your perception of it. This is also the way the basic self has been changed into a special self, namely by perceiving it in a way so that it seems to have become an independent being in charge of its own life.

And yet the special self needs constant approval from others to feel alive. To get that, it often establishes a family, which can be manipulated into giving it the confirmation it needs to feel it exists as an independent being. If this does not work as intended, it may pay money to a psychologist who will ratify its uniqueness. It does not realise how dependent it is on those supporting its perception of being independent.

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Those who have established a perception of themselves as unique beings with the power to do things in their own way and pace, need constant movements of thoughts to uphold their twisted perception of themselves. But as this movement soon becomes too hectic to relax, they meditate to calm down.

At least this is their official reason for meditating, but the real goal is to generate more thoughts so they can promote themselves in more special ways as if they are someone having direct experiences, for example. As anybody who has meditated knows, when trying to control thoughts they multiply. Read more about that here.

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The idea of keeping an open mind excites the special self because it seems to confirm the belief that it is possible to be and have more than that which is one. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

The special self only talks about feelings in a speculative fashion like ´do I really love this person?´ to which the answer is no.

The special self does not love anybody because to uphold its perception of being in control, it avoids feelings of intimacy by being with specially selected people who collectively have agreed to focus on the metaphysical energy of emotions and not their emotional impact.

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Since feelings tend to mess up the perception that the special self has made of itself of an independent and unique being, it wants to keep them at a distance. But as this collides with its need to show off as an open person, it lays the blame for fencing off feelings on its spouse or somebody else, who it criticises for being closed and thus making it impossible for the special self to express its feelings.

This perceived unapproachableness of others is a favourite topic of the special self. And although its own feelings are unrecognised, it is an expert on the feelings others hide from it. At least in its own opinion, but what it sees in others is its own suppressed feelings (read more about that here).

The basic self, on the other hand, has no need to suppress or express feelings. What it sees outside of itself mirrors what it feels inside and vice versa because it is the brain that produces the experiences that it seems to have as well as those other seems to get and its perception is synchronised with all these experiences.

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The special self does not want life to tear it down, so it makes a perception of itself as if it is in control of everything. When events seem to go its way, they are perceived to be caused by itself. But if they do not seem to be going its way, the special self blames somebody else for it.

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The experience of being someone definitive amongst others in a world where there seems to be more than one is like having a dream where you appear to be together with others. It is not an experience you share with anybody but yourself (see also hack #8.8 Alone together is the key to that which is one).

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The basic self is all about the survival as somebody, whereas the basic self is all about serving and thus being nobody. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

The special self likes to think it is spiritual if it claims we all are one. And it might deceive those who, just like itself, believes in separation because this statement is founded on that belief. Hence it is not being spiritual but separated that the special self wants to enhance when it says we all at one.

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If you perceive yourself to be detached from the experiences you seem to have, you are fooling yourself because you need them to prove this.

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The special self is all about survival, whereas the basic self is all about serving.

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As the basic self perceives the thoughts that are experienced to come from inside of it to manifest a world as if it is outside of it, the apparent difference between inside and outside is not perceived to make a difference.

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Whenever the special self blames the basic self for being a victim of the brain, it is projecting its own need for the brain on the basic self, because the special self is in a battle with the brain, and what you fight you to need. The basic self does not resist but serves the brain, which sees no difference between its servant and itself, because the purpose of mastering the self is to serve it in the best possible way. Just like parents want to do what is in the best interest for their kid.

But since the special self does not want to be a servant, it makes sure to perceive everything in such a way that it appears to be a master.

The special self likes to be together with others, but on one condition, namely that others accept its perception, so that it is what shapes their relationship.

As the shaping of thoughts into this misperception is quite nerve-racking, the special self tries to relax by getting rid of the thoughts it judges as negative. The basic self, on the other hand, has no need to get rid of anything because its happiness comes from serving everything as it is.

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When thoughts seem to stress the special self, and it needs to meditate, it is not because the brain produces a lot of thoughts, but because the special self is busy moving those few that there are available so it can compile them into a perception that does not relate to its experiences as they are but how they should be.

Since the basic self perceives its experiences as they are and therefore confirms that every moment is the perfect moment, it does not see anything that needs changing. Hence there is not something to stress it but to make it feel good. Read more about a perfect moment in hack #4.1 Every moment is the perfect moment.

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The basic self has no need to edit its perception into something that complies with special concepts of how to be together in harmony, balance or whatnot. It rather keeps the perception in sync with the flow of thoughts coming from the brain. And as everything it experiences is created by that flow, it is always together with everything. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

When Alexius, whose basic self is a store-room manager (read more about that here) travels, the brain automatically registers the things passing by so they can be added to the map already established in his brain of the area. In other words, his joy does not come from watching the beauty of the scenery he passes but from being in sync with his basic nature by collecting and organising data.

The special self sees this as negative and that the activity of the brain should be stopped so that there are no thoughts of the past and the future to disturb it from enjoying the beauty of the present scenery. This, at least, is its official explanation.

But the real reason for trying to stop the natural flow of thoughts is that when thoughts are pushed down, via meditation for example, they try to exceed the limits laid upon them by multiplying themselves. And the special self needs more thoughts than the brain makes available for making a perception of the experiences it produces. To construct a perception that is out sync with the experiences as they are produced by the brain but in sync with the concepts of being centred, living in the now and coming from the heart, for example, lots of special thoughts are needed.

But not all the multiplied thought are useable for the perception the special self wants to build. Those judged to be wrong, which in this context probably are the thoughts of ugliness, it excludes, so that it can perceive to be in the beauty of the now. But as nothing can be experienced without its contrast, there is no beauty without ugliness, so its perception of the now is purely speculative. Thus it is not joy but confusion that arises from it.

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The special self always excludes what it judges as negative from the perception of itself in the expectation that it will be more loved when seen as positive. It is not positivity, though, but exclusivity that it is adored for because that seems to confirm separation and therefore all those believing they are special to be independent beings.

Some of them, however, perceive themselves to be more special than others, so they form groups and fight each other about what who is good and evil. In general, none of them has an alternative to what they deem to be bad. It is more critical for them to have a common enemy because that gives them a feeling of being united in special their group without having to give up the belief in separation because that is kept alive through the shared hatred of another group.

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To define something as small, there must be something tall as well. The special self, however, always tries to exclude one side of a contrast. It wants love but not hate, and positivity but not negativity, for example. The special self, therefore, excludes hate and negativity from itself by projecting it on others. But as you cannot experience one side of a contrast without the other, the avoidance of one of them includes the other one. Thus you exclude love as well when you exclude hate, so if you perceive to be free from hatred, the love you believe to experience is purely speculative. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

Since it is not possible to alter the stream of thoughts that the brain produces for the self it has created, the consciousness that has been installed in it by the brain first make a perception of the stream that establishes itself as the maker of it. Then, like a god, it says »This is my creation.« And Bam! The world, as it perceives it, appears to manifest. Next, it says, »I am an independent being.´ And Bam! The perception is ratified as a fact.

Third, it builds a character that has a few flaws, so it always has something to make better through meditation or other techniques where it seems to be in control and thus in charge of its own life. Although all of this makes it feel unique, it does not feel fulfilled because being on its own feels lonely.

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The special self feels dominated by the natural flow of thoughts coming from the brain. But it is dominated by nothing but its perception of the flow of thoughts

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The brain has implanted a consciousness in the self it has fabricated, so the self can be aware of itself as someone substantial by continually perceiving the experiences the brain keeps making as tangible. But when the perception of the self does not relate to the experiences as the brain creates them but how the consciousness expects them to be, the self disassociates itself from the brain and thus itself, because what and where it appears to be is a product of the brain.

The perceived independence, therefore, is a disassociation from itself, and every act that it perceives to do in its own way and pace deepens it. That is why dieting, meditation, or whatever it does does not make it satisfied.

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The function of the brain is to create entertaining thoughts for the self that it has fabricated. So if the thoughts coming from the brain do not seem to please but frustrate the self, the consciousness of the self most likely have perceived the flow of them in a way that do not comply with it but instead speculative concepts of capitalism, socialism, spiritualism or another ism meant to make the self feel that there is something better than the  natural flow of thoughts from the brain, which the self can be a special part of.

But since this perception is founded on a particular belief system, it is restricted by its concepts. And self-discipline does not make you feel delighted but sad. In other words, you do not get the joy or fulfilment your belief system promises, but stress and confusion – especially because the thoughts you have compiled to keep your perception in line with it do not like your attempt of control, so they move faster and faster to escape your domination.

No worries, if you do not try to stop this restless energy, it automatically ignites a take-off to the empty breath, where the slate is wiped clean for all misperceptions, so you do not need a lot of thoughts to make a special perception. Actually, you need none, because if you do not interfere the brain makes a perception for you that is in sync with the flow of thoughts making up the experiences you appear to have of a world outside of you. Read more about that in hack #4.3 To be a basic self is to be good enough.

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The appearances of the basic and special self changes with the natural flow of thoughts coming from the brain in ways that do not necessarily look consistent. The special self, however, denies this inconsistency by making a perception in which everything appears to take place in agreement with the principles of a specific religion, political affiliation, philosophy, or spirituality, for example.

To enhance the image of everything being in order, it tries to set up its surroundings with special things. But since this is done to avoid feeling the moment as it is, what this enhances, psychologically speaking, is a feeling of being inconsistent and therefore not good enough according to the principles it believes in following instead of the thoughts coming from the brain.

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A dream only seems real, when you believe to be someone definitive doing something specific in it. The same applies to your appearance as someone in a world where there seems to be more than one. It is all make-believe. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

If you try to solve absent-mindedness by mindfulness meditation or grounding exercises, you make it worse, because you do not know how to take care of yourself. Only your maker does, and as that is the brain, the solution, in the context of believing to be someone, is to be in alignment with the stream of thoughts coming from it, instead of using meditation, for example, to distance yourself from it. Read more about that here.

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When you do not argue with the gamemaster in a role-play, you feel it is entertaining just to follow the rules.

You do not even have to care about returning to that which is real because the gamemaster knows that being in its game is all make-believe.

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Social media is a system based on clicks, likes and sharing. The more a post enhances hate and separation, the more it is clicked, liked and shared and, therefore, helps the special self in spreading fake news and the basic lie, that we are somebody substantial in a tangible world. This is so widespread that it is believed to be a fact, although science states the world that we experience as substantial consists of empty space.

The glorification of separation also helps advertisers to make more money on social media – especially because those believing to be separated from others think that buying something will make their loneliness go away.

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If a perception of the special self is exposed as self-deception, it diverts the focus from itself by making up a new perception in which it is unjustly attacked.

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The self that the brain has fabricated from out of nothing (read more about that here) and continuously administer to make it appear as if it is something seem quite dull when it compares itself to the freedom it would have if not controlled by the brain but itself. But the self cannot be changed, only the perception of it. So no matter how you perceive yourself, you are still the same self that the brain has created and controls.

However, when perceiving oneself to be independent, there is always the fear of not being good enough and worries about the end, whereas when perceived to be a medium for the brain, one full of confidence follows it to the very end, where nothing does not seem to be something anymore. Hence there is not something appearing to hide there never was or will be anything but that which is one since it is formless and thus without beginning and end.

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Feeling empty undoes the belief in being someone because there is nothing in emptiness and thus not something to define you.


NOTE: This article is part of hack #4.2 The basic self versus the special one, which is still in the process of being written.

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