+ The special self tries to control thoughts and the basic self serves them [draft]

Nothing appears to be good enough for the special self because it always seems to hear a voice whispering ´there must be more.´. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

The basic self does not understand, why the special self always wants to be affirmed by somebody. It has no need for that because it is always vouched for by its maker, the brain, for following the instructions it gets.

This is why it does not know, that to be confirmed as unique is the only thing that matters to the special self and that it only chooses to be in the relationships where it can lay down the rules, which first of all is that everything said and done by others should be an approval of how special it is.


Although neither the basic or special self never causes anything, the special self fools itself into believing it is in charge by perceiving past events in such a way that it seems to have caused them.


The special self is an expert in flattery. It uses it to manipulate others into feeling appreciated and thus become so dependent on the compliments that they are willing to pay the price for being approved by the special self, which is to submit to it.

But neither the carrot or stick method work on the basic self. It has no need to belong to the world painted by the special self. On the contrary. It seems to be full of people who try to hide feeling small by creating a special world where they seem essential.

But the basic self does not want to be dependent on their world, but to be free to follow the commands of the brain and thus being in the happiness that this induces.


That one can make things happen through manipulation of thoughts – for example by visualising them – is something the special self likes to believe, as that makes it look like it is in control of its life.

But it is like thinking the TV show you turn on by hitting the remote control is made by you. Somebody else has made the show, and the only thing you can change is your perception of it. This is also the way the special self has been made, namely by changing the perception of the basic self into a self imagined to be better.

But even though the special self believes it is in charge of itself, it does not feel alive. Thus it keeps on looking for somebody or something to make it feel that it exist. Most often it chooses to establish a family, that can be manipulated into giving it the confirmation it needs. If this does not work as intended, it may pay money to a psychologist or a guru who can approve it to be a unique and independent being. It does it realise how dependent it is on those supporting its perception of being independent.


The basic self is all about the survival as someone definitive, whereas the basic self is all about serving and thus being nobody. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

The special self is all about survival, whereas the basic self is all about serving.


As the basic self follows the thoughts that are experienced to come from inside of it and to manifest a world outside of it, the apparent difference between inside and outside is not perceived to make a difference.


When the special self blames the basic self for being a victim of the brain, it is projecting its own need for the brain on the basic self, because the special self fights the brain, and what you challenge you to need. The basic self does not resist but serves the brain, which does not differentiate between its servant and itself, because the purpose of mastering the self is to serve it in the best possible way. Just like parents want to do what is in the best interest for their child.

But since the special self does not want to be a servant, it makes sure to perceive everything in such a way that it appears to be a master.

The special self likes to be together with others, but on one condition, namely that others accept its perception, so that it is what shapes their relationship.

The shaping of thoughts into this misperception can be quite nerve-racking, so the special self always looks forward to getting rid of specific thoughts, for example those it judges as negative, whereas the basic self feels fulfilled in the unedited flow of thoughts.


The basic self has no need to adjust thoughts, so they comply with special concepts of how to be together in harmony, balance or whatnot because it is in sync with the flow of thoughts coming from the brain. And as everything it experiences is created by that flow, it is always together with everything. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

When Alexius, whose basic self is a store-room manager (read more about that here) is travelling, the brain automatically registers the things passing by so they can be added to the map already established in his brain of the area. In other words, his joy does not come from watching the beauty of the scenery he is travelling through but from being in sync with his basic nature, by collecting and organising data.

The special self sees this as bad and that the activity of the brain should be stopped so that there are no thoughts of the past and the future to disturb it from enjoying the beauty of the present scenery. At least this is its official explanation.

But the real reason for stopping the natural activity of the brain is that when this is accomplished through meditation, for example, the thoughts that have been held back try to escape the imprisonment by multiplying. And the special self needs more thoughts than the brain makes available for the perception of the experiences it produces because many thoughts are needed to make up the speculative concepts of living in the now, coming from the heart and whatnot.

But it does not want all the thoughts, that it seems to generate. Those judged to be wrong, which in this context probably are the thoughts of ugliness, it excludes, so that it can perceive to be in the beauty of the now. But as nothing can be experienced without something to contrast it, this perception is purely speculative. Thus it is not joy but confusion that arises from it.


The special self always tries to exclude what it judges as negative in the expectation that it will be more loved when seen as positive. It is not positivity, though, but exclusivity that it is adored for, as that seems to confirm separation and therefore all those believing to be special as independent beings.

Some of them, however, perceive themselves to be more special than others, so they form groups that fight each other about what is wrong. Not very often do they have an alternative to what they deem improper. It is more critical for them to have a common enemy because that gives them a feeling of being united within their group without having to give up the belief in separation because that is kept alive through the shared hatred of the enemy.


To define something as small, there must be something tall as well. The special self, however, always tries to exclude one side of a contrast. It wants love but not hate and positivity but not negativity, for example. The special self, therefore, excludes hate and negativity from itself by projecting it on others. But as you cannot experience one side of a contrast without the other, the avoidance of one of them includes the other one. In other words, if you exclude hate, you also exclude love, so if you perceive to be free from hatred, the love you believe to experience is purely speculative. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

Since it is not possible to alter the stream of thoughts that the self receives from the brain, its consciousness breaks away from it by first making a perception of it that establishes the self as the maker of it. Then it, like a god, says »Here is my world.« And Bam! The world as it perceives it appears to have manifested. Next, it says, »I am alive independently of the brain.´ And Bam! Its perception is put on the Statute Book.

Third, it builds a character with a few flaws, so it always has something to make better through meditation or other techniques where it seems to be in control and thus in charge of its own life, which enhances its feeling of being special.

When you fall in love with someone you tend to see that person in everyone. That is until you have a closer look. Then you realise you were mistaken. Likewise, when you perceive yourself to be an independent and unique person, you recognize when you have a closer look that it is not so. Nobody is special.


The special self feels dominated by the natural flow of thoughts coming from the brain. But it is its own perception of it a that dominates it.


The function of the brain is to create entertaining thoughts for the self that it has fabricated, so if the thoughts coming from it do not seem to please but frustrate the self, its consciousness most likely has made a perception of them, that do not comply with the flow but the speculative concepts of spiritualism, capitalism or another ism meant to make the self feel that it belongs to something better.

But since this perception is founded on a particular belief system, it is restricted by the concepts of the system. And control does not bring about amusement but frustration. In other words, you do not get the peace or fulfilment your specific system promises, but stress and confusion – especially as the thoughts you have compiled for keeping your perception together do not like to be controlled by you, so they move faster and faster to escape it.

No worries, if you do not try to stop this the restless energy, it ignites a take-off to the empty breath, where the slate is wiped clean for all misperceptions so that you only need the few thoughts it takes to make a perception that is in sync with the script of the brain.


Every time there seem to be thoughts doubting each other, you can be sure you are out of sync with the script of the brain. Not in the way you act, because you are not free to change that, but in the way you perceive it.

This is easily corrected. You just try different perceptions. The one that makes you feel entertained is in sync with the script of the brain. As it is never too late to change your perception of the past, you can have had the best relationships ever. Read more about that in hack # 1.3 You cannot change the world, but you can change your perception of it.


Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

To uphold the image of itself as a positive person, the special self avoids the feelings that it perceives to be negative by hiding them in the body. And to make sure nobody discovers it still contains those emotions – for example, sexual lust, power strivings, selfishness, greed, envy, anger and rage – it projects them onto the others.

But since everything in the script of the brain comes in pairs, positivity cannot be experienced without its contrast, negativity, and vice versa. Thus the suppression of negative emotions does not turn the special self into a positive person but someone living in denial and therefore out of sync with the script of the brain.

Willingness to feel the emotions that seem to scare us reveals that they are not something but nothing. Just like the sounds, you hear when walking on an empty street, do not scare you anymore when you look around and realise what you hear is just the wind playing with the leaves.

But if those feelings perceived as negative are not avoided, they do not seem to scare but assure you, because now they can be combined as supposed to be with their contrast so that the two halves make a whole. And what is whole feels amusing. So does the feeling of being happy/sad, that may arise from having lost the interest in the relations that were based on the former exclusion.


Contrary to the basic self, whose appearance changes with the natural flow of thoughts coming from the brain in ways that do not necessarily look consistent, the appearance of the special self is always perceived as if it is persistent.

This is not because the special self is different from the basic one, but because it has another perception of itself, which it believes override the natural flow of thoughts coming from the brain.

To make sure that it is this perception that defines it, the special self talks much about selected thoughts and/or emotions and sets up its surroundings to imitate them via music, candles, incense and red wine, for example. But it is speculative attitudes. The special self avoids feeling what it talks about because it is afraid it is not going to feel what it imagines to be.


A dream only seems real, when you believe to be someone definitive doing something specific in its world. The same applies to your appearance as someone in a world where there seems to be more than one. It is all make-believe. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

If you try to solve absent-mindedness by mindfulness meditation or grounding exercises, the problem is not solved but enhanced, because you do not know how to take care of yourself. Only your maker does that, and as it is the brain, the solution, in the context of believing to be someone, is to be in alignment with the stream of thoughts coming from the brain, instead of using meditation, for example, to distance yourself from it. Read more about that here.


When you do not argue with the gamemaster in a role-play, you feel it is entertaining just to follow the rules.

You do not even have to care about returning to that which is real because the gamemaster knows that being in its game is all make-believe.


Social media is a system based on clicks, likes and sharing. The more a post enhances hate and separation, the more it is clicked, liked and shared and, therefore, helps the special self in spreading fake news and the basic lie, that you are someone substantial in a tangible world. It has been so widespread that it is believed to be a fact, although science states the world we experience as substantial consists of empty space.

The glorification of separation also helps advertisers to make more money on social media – especially because those believing to be separated beings think that buying something will make their loneliness go away.


If one of the many lies of the special self is exposed, it ignores it and diverts the focus from itself by making up a new lie about being unjust attacked.


The basic self that the brain has fabricated from out of nothing (read more about that here) and continuously controls seem quite dull compared to how exciting it imagines to be if it was in control of itself. But since this fantasy is just a manipulated version of the basic self, it is the same emptiness made to look as if it is something.

Besides, this emptiness shaped by the consciousness of the basic self always fears not being good enough and worries about its end, contrary to the emptiness shaped by the brain, that full of confidence follows the brain to the very end, where it returns to the nothingness from which a thought of something once seemed to arise and materialise itself as a brain capable of making thoughts from nothing and compile them, so they appear to manifest a tangible world with substantial appearances.

Returning to nothing there is not something appearing to hide there never was and never will be anything but that which is one since it is formless and therefore neither has a beginning or an end.


Feeling empty undoes the belief in being someone because there is nothing in emptiness, so there is not something to define you.

NOTE: This article is part of hack #4.2 The basic self versus the special one, which is still in the process of being written.