NZR (+) The special self wants to be in control of thoughts, whereas the basic self wants nothing but to serve them [under development]

The special self always listen to the voice whispering ´there is something more´, so nothing seems to be good enough.Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

The basic self does not understand, why the special self always needs to be engaged with somebody, but that is because being connected with the brain the basic self has no special view of itself that needs to be confirmed.

According to the special self the world does not belong to the brain but to itself.

Thus it does not know, that this is all the special self cares about and that it only chooses to be in relationships where it lays down the rules, which first of all is that everything said and done should be a confirmation of its specialness.

The special self likes to think, that it can make things happen through manipulation of thoughts – for example by visualising them – as that makes it looks like it is in control of its own life.

But it is like thinking you are the cause of a TV show you watch, because you hit the remote control to start it. The show is made by someone else and there is nothing you can change about it except how you perceive it, which is the way the basic self seems to have evolved from a basic to a special self, namely by changing its perception of who it is.

But even though the special self believes that it is better than before, it does not know what it is. That is why it constantly looks for somebody who can prove its existence. But as the basic self and the empty breath disapprove its existence, the special self looks for someone just as delusional as itself to approve its existence.

And it gladly pays a lot of money to a psychologist or a guru for being approved as a unique and independent being, without realising how it is dependent on those approving it. Most however choose to have a family, that they manipulate into approving them.

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When the consciousness of the self goes rogue, it manipulates the stream of thoughts it receives from the brain, so that it seems that if the self meditates or use other techniques that appears to control thoughts, it will become independent of the brain and thus in charge of its own life.

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The basic self is all about the survival as someone definitive, whereas the basic self is all about serving. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

The special self is all about survival, whereas the basic self is all about being at service.

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As the basic self follows the thoughts that are experienced to come from inside but also to manifest a world outside of it, the experience of inside and outside is not perceived to make a difference.

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In the eyes of the special self, the basic self is a victim of brain. Yet it is the other way around. The special self fights the brain, and what you fight you need. The basic self on the other hand does not fight but serves the brain, which does perceive the servant to be different from it, as the purpose of its mastery is to serve the self – inclusive the special one.

But since the special self wants to be a master and not a servant, it manipulates the thoughts coming from the brain into a story where it appears to be independent of the brain and in control of its own life.

The special self twists everything into a story, where it is not a servant but a master.

Since the shaping of thoughts into a story where the special self is on its own can be quite nerve-racking, the special self always looks forward to be free from thoughts, whereas the basic self feels free in the unedited flow of them.

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The basic self has no need to adjust thoughts, so they comply with the concepts the special self has of how to be together, in harmony, balance, in the now and whatnot, because it is in sync with the flow of thoughts provided by the brain and as everything in a world where there seems to be more than one is in that flow, it is happily together with everything regardless speculative concepts of how to be that.

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Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

When Alexius, whose basic self is a store-room manager, is travelling he automatically registers the things passing by add them to the map already made in his brain of this area. In other words, his joy does not come watching the beauty of the scenery he is travelling through but from being in sync with his basic nature, which is to organise it.

The special self sees this as something that should be stopped, so that there is no thoughts of the past and the future to disturb them from living in the now and thus to enjoy the beauty of the scenery passing by. This is its official explanation, but the actual reason for stopping thoughts is to imprison them, because in an attempt to escape they multiply, and the special self needs much more thoughts than those the brain produces for the basic self in order to construct its own concepts of living in the now, coming from the heart and whatnot.

It does not want all of the thoughts though. Those judged to be wrong, which in this case are thoughts of ugliness, it excludes so it can keep together its concept of beauty in the now. But as nothing can be experienced without its contrast, there is no beauty without ugliness, so the thoughts judged to be wrong keep coming back. Hence there is a constant fight between good and bad and it is not joy but confusion that arises from that.

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The special self is always trying to exclude what it judges to be negative in the expectation it will be more liked when it is positive. It is not positivity, though, but exclusivity that it is liked for, as that seems to confirm separation and therefore the special selves to be independent beings.

As some perceive themselves to be more special than others, they form groups fighting each other about what is wrong. Not very often though do they have an alternative to what they judge as wrong. This is not so important to them. It is more important to have a common enemy, because this gives them a feeling of being united with the group without having to give up the belief in separation, as that is kept alive through their common hate of the enemy.

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The function of the brain is to create thoughts that entertain the self, so if you think the thoughts you are receiving are stupid and should be stopped or changed, it is you who are stupid, because as long as you believe to be someone in a world where there seems to be more than one, there is nothing better than to follow the thoughts the brain makes to amuse you.

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To define something as small there must also be something tall. Yet the special self always tries to exclude one side of a contrast. It wants love but not hate and positivity but not negativity, for example. Thus the special self project hate and negativity on others. But as you cannot have one without the other, the avoidance of something includes its contrast. In other words, if you exclude hate, you also exclude love, so the love you believe to have is purely speculative.

The special self denies that hate is something it experiences, so that it can be defined as positive person. But as this is accomplished by burying the experience of hate in its body, the feeling is still inside the special self, which it hides  by projecting it onto somebody else.

No emotion, however, can be experienced without its contrast, so by suppressing hate, love is also suppressed. Thus the definition of the special self as a lovingly person is not founded on the feeling of love but speculative concepts about it.

When you try to get rid of specific feelings, your fear of them grows stronger. But if you feel them by totally being them, they are cancelled out due to lack of contrast. Though there is no memory of them afterwards, you may notice that some relationships have changing, namely those based hiding those feelings that vanished.

In fact love cannot be felt, neither can any other emotion, because if you really feel love and nothing else, there is not something to contrast it, and therefore nothing to define what you are feeling, which means you are not feeling anything definable. That is feelings are a construction of thoughts, that needs to be talked about in order to make it look like you feel something.

This applies to any other contrast, for example right and wrong.

So be happy if you experience to love and hate someone at the same time

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In a dream you always appear to be doing something or being with somebody, as otherwise you would not appear to be there. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

No matter what you experience to be in a dream you appear to have, it is make-believe. And so is the appearance of you as someone in a world where there seems to be more than one, because there is no more than that which is one, since it is formless and therefore endless. In other words, if you experience something, you are hallucinating, because it takes more than one to experience anything.

That being said, your experiences should not be dismissed. On the contrary. They ratify your choice to believe that it is possible to be and have more than that which is one, and if you do not honour having made this choice you cannot undo it.


NOTE: This article is part of hack #4.3 The basic self versus the special one