To be a basic self is to be happy, yet most prefer to be special and sad

The special self uses much energy to suppress the thoughts and feelings judged as negative or politically incorrect. This it deems necessary to preserve what it believes in being or will become when it lives in the now, come from the heart or whatnot. On the other hand, the basic self has no need to appear in a special way. Therefore, since it does not judge something as wrong, it has nothing bad to hide. Hen Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

In most cases, you do not have to read Alexius´ Enlightened Non-Teachings in a particular order. But in the case of this article, you may benefit from having read about the perception ´it is what it is´ in hack #4.2 The brain´s script and how to perceive it to feel happy. Also, hack #4.1 The basic self versus the special one,

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The special self hides unpleasant psychological issues from its awareness by dumping them behind physical problems. Thus it can preserve its image of being friendly. To prevent the concealed psychological problems from surfacing and expose its peaceful image as fake, the special self never allows itself to relax unless in a structured way. On the other hand, the basic self has no special image to uphold. Consequently, relaxing happens naturally.

This does not mean that the basic self never explodes of anger. But, contrary to the special self, it does not see this as wrong. Therefore, since it never hides its rage or any other emotion but perceives its reaction to them as ´it is what it is,´ there are no suppressed emotions from the past to trigger.

That said, nobody is perfect, so there may have been times when the basic self forgot to perceive its reaction to something as ´it is what it is.´ No problem. It is never too late in perceiving a past response as ´it is what it is´ and have it revealed not to be definitive but twofold, so you are aligned with duality.

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The special self does not want to see itself as it is, so it excludes everything from its awareness that does not ratify its image of how perfect it is or will be when it has been transformed. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

Being the basic self, you perceive every moment as perfect (read more about that here), no matter the body’s condition, because the basic self perceives its reaction to that as ´it is what it is.´ This is why Alexius feels good even though his physical condition does not contribute to this. Internal organs have been harmed due to Scheuermann’s disease, so he has chronic GERD and inflammation in the lungs and the nose. Furthermore, he has been operated on three times in the heart, and one of his eyes hardly works. The list goes on.

He has never been smoking and always been eating healthy and exercising, so it does not seem he can improve his physical issues. Sometimes, though, he turns into the special self in an attempt to boost his physical wellbeing. But since this attempt is based on not feeling good enough, it enhances that feeling. Therefore, frustration builds up until he returns to the default perception of the basic self, ´it is what it is.´ That makes him feel good, regardless of appearance.

This is not to say you should not take care of the body when you are tuned into being the basic self because you are bound to follow the brain’s instructions regardless of being that. And they include taking care of the body. However, the special self does not like to follow orders, so it hides that it obeys the brain by making a perception in which the special self appears to be in charge, or going with a spiritual flow.

As that perception is out of sync with the brain´s script, the special self does not feel happy but rejected. This feeling it disguises by projecting it onto obscure parts of the body. But you cannot hide an abstract problem in something substantial. The body senses you try to do that and fight it by shooting off here and there. Thus your attempt of combining a psychological issue with a physical one turns into a psychosomatic disorder that cannot be healed until the unfortunate idea that this mix is possible is dropped.

Hereafter the body is free to heal itself, and emotional problems can be dealt with in the non-physical sphere where they are conceived. Actually, the non-physical area is so airy that your psychological problems disappear when you look at them. In other words, when not hiding psychological problems, they do not remain for long.

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To prevent the image of the special self from cracking, it is crucial not to feel its emotions. Therefore, since the special self suppresses them, it becomes so numb that it cannot feel anything. Instead, it invents stories about feelings that fit its self-perception. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

Should you have conditioned yourself to feel relaxed when you hear a specific kind of music, you find yourself part of a story, where you know you will relax every time you hear this music. In other words, what you believe in feeling is a product of your story.

And as most of what you believe in feeling rests on stories, you are hardly ever in touch with your emotions but how you have conditioned yourself to feel them. This suits the special self very well. It does not want to experience its feelings as they are, but how it imagines them according to a story about its own greatness.

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It is the counterpart of a feeling that defines it. Therefore, as hate defines love, feeling in love is not a singular but twofold feeling. Hence you must include hate to feel love. But since the special self always excludes the unpleasant parts of a duality pair from its awareness, it has no hatred to define it feels love. Thus it does not know if it loves somebody. That is why nothing seems good enough. However, this confusion is settled the moment the special self stops excluding the emotions perceived as improper.

But the special self is afraid that the inclusion of incorrect feelings, such as sexual lust, power strivings, selfishness, greed, envy, anger and rage, will destroy its carefully created image of perfection. Therefore, the special self keeps on excluding unfavourable feelings. But since all emotions are paired with their counterpart, it is impossible to experience positivity without negativity. So when the special self feels positive, it is fake. In other words, the suppression of emotions perceived as wrong does not make the special self perfect but phoney.

If feelings perceived as unfavourable are not excluded, they are automatically included. Since negativity, therefore, meets its buddy, positivity, you feel complete. Read about inclusion versus exclusion in hack #3.2 Inclusiveness is pure bliss.

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When a ball is coming your way, it´s a natural reflex to respond and following such reflexes is pure fun.

When a ball is coming your way, it is an automatic reflex to respond to it. Automatically following such reflexes is natural and invokes how easy it is when you are the basic self. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

The basic self has no need to establish anything as special. It knows all experiences are produced side by side in the brain  – just like everything is together on your hard disk or in the cloud even though they seem to be divided in different appearances on your screen. Therefore, as nothing is separated, the apparent differences do more make a difference.

The special self wants to believe that the apparent difference makes a difference, so it can judge one to be better than another and see coherence and consistency where there is none. The purpose of this is to make it look like the special self makes a difference. But since every experience is produced and regulated by the brain and not you, this is impossible.

Yet, it is possible to perceive the experiences created by the brain, so everything that does not establish you to make a difference is excluded. But since this is archived by imagining, you can hide the eliminated experiences behind the experience of bodily pain, the special self ends up with psychosomatic problems.

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Sometimes a doctor may check the function of a body by knocking on special points to see if the involuntary movements work. But, actually, everything you think you do is automatic. If you believe to be in control, you have worked hard to perceive the body´s activity as generated by you.

To fabricate this perception, the behaviour of automatic reflexes is translated into something that seems to have been chosen by you. And by learning how to suppress the reflexes that do not fit into your idea of calling the shots, you become a person who seems to do everything by your own choice. And those judged to be outside of you appear to be doing things against or for you by their choice. However, keeping up this impression is hard work because you always have to hide that your reaction to something is involuntary to appear as you are in control.

It is so much easier just to go with the flow of the natural reflexes. It also feels much better because, being nobody, there is not somebody else – and that is so peaceful.

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While appearing to be in a body, enjoy the physical sensations from food and sex, but do not count on bodily experiences for your emotional wellbeing. The body cannot provide that. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

In the past, the special self made up a hateful story to use as the foundation for perceiving the present to confirm its past judgment of others as evil. And since the past, therefore, appears to repeat itself, the special self can rest assured in its perception of itself as good and others as bad.

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If somebody triggers an old feeling of rejection in the special self, it first interprets it as an attack. Next, it justifies feeling rejected by being attacked. Since the feeling, therefore, seems to originate in the attacker, the special self can conclude, the feeling does not come from itself. Should the attacker expose this self-deception, the special self points out something from the past that makes the attacker feel guilty. Thus the special self is off the hook and can rest assured that it is perfect, and the attacker is flawed.

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The special self does not know what it feels, only what it is supposed to experience when somebody is too late for an appointment, for example. But this, it does not feel either. The disappointment is suppressed in an explanation of being unjustly treated.

The moment the special self stops justifying made-up feelings, they are exposed as fake. Nobody is unjustly treated in the brain´s script. It is all about feeling entertained by duality, which you are when not perceiving your reaction to your experiences in a specific way but as ´it is what it is.´ That reveals your response to something is never singular but twofold. Therefore, since you are in a world of duality, you feel complete

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The stories you make to hide what you feel, sooner or later clash with the actual experiences of the world where you seem to be.

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If you, in your culture, are supposed to feel disrespected when someone is more than 15 minutes late for a meeting, you can, in a rational way, prove to others that you are in the right when you claim you feel hurt. But since rationally explaining a feeling changes it to a mental concept, you do not feel hurt. The only feeling left is that of victory because you have convinced others that you are right when you say you have been hurt.

But since that only last as long as others are willing to listen to the story of your made-up feeling, you feel frustrated when another story catches their interest. No worries. If you perceive the meaning you have assigned to your story as ´it is what it is,´ nothing in it adds up to something specific. Hence the story cannot be used to justify being unfairly treated and thus not suppress what you actually feel. Being in touch with that makes you feel so fulfilled that you do not need the satisfaction of being in the right. Read more about made-up feelings here.

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Undoing the belief in being someone special is like taking a step into the unknown. And since life cannot be known, this is precisely where you find it. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

When you justify an unpleasant emotion of yours with something seen as wrong outside you, the feeling is buried in a mental drama of fairness. Thus you do not know what you feel. Instead, you speak about the feeling you are supposed to have according to the story you made to hide, you are afraid of everyone because you expect them to get back at you for blaming them for your negative emotions.

This is too shameful to admit when you feel attacked by others. Thus, by reflex, you invent a new story where you are angry because you have been mistreated by others. Therefore, as you appear innocent, you conclude you are pure.

But this setup makes you feel you always run away from something. So, as usual, you hide what you feel by changing the focus from you to others in whom you point out the flaws that you instinctively knows will make them feel guilty. This you are very good at, and all your friends know it. Yet, they do not expose you. That would also unmask them because they also look for someone to attack to get off the hook. That is why they recognise it in you.

To hide that they all hate the world, they meet in special groups where they hug and share in a collectively agreed way that looks like they are united. Yet, it is not love that connects them but the wish to hide they hate each and every one. Naturally, nobody wants to acknowledge this, least of all they want to speak about in the group because anybody who does not censor themselves to speak and act within the language of love established by the group, or its guru, is expelled. Then there is nowhere to go to find relief from your despair.

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There is no truth to extract from Alexius´ Enlightened Non-Teachings. They are a part of a world where there seems to be more than one, and such a world is non-existing because there is no more than that which is one since it is formless and therefore endless. Hence the differentiation of a basic and special self and their perceptions are nonsense. Nevertheless, this craziness can be beneficial in exposing the absurdity of believing to be someone in a world where there seems to be more than one. Read more about that in hack #4.4 The duality flow goes to non-duality.


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