To be a basic self is to be good enough [DRAFT]

The belief in a body-mind connection is a confusion of levels – just like the physical connection you feel when you communicate with somebody on the internet is an illusion. There is no physical contact. The connection is purely mental. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

Thanks for passing by. This article is in its very first stages of being written. Alexius is in the process of exploring what to say and how to to do it. You may, therefore, be better off reading another article.

PART 1
The special self is built on combining the psychological feelings that it judges to be negative with physical ones so that this combo hides them from its awareness, and it, therefore, appears to be a positive person. To prevent concealed feelings from surfacing and thus destroying this image, it never allows itself to relax unless in a structured way. On the other hand, the basic self has nothing to uphold and hence no need to keep specific psychological feelings at a distance by hiding them in physical ones. Consequently, relaxing happens naturally.

This does not mean that the basic self never explodes of anger, but, contrary to the special self, it does not attempt to hide this feeling amongst physical ones, nor does its rage trigger suppressed anger from the past. There is nothing to trigger because everything is perceived as ´it is what it is.´* For the same reason, the present anger is another fleeting emotion that seems as entertaining as any other feeling produced by the brain.

That being said, the basic self is not perfect, so there may have been something it has forgotten to perceive as ´it is what it is´* and instead perceived in a specific way it felt a need to hide. No problem. It is never too late to perceive something as ´it is what it is,´* so when the hidden feeling shows its face, this is how it is perceived.


It does not rain because you feel sad, nor does the rain has the power to make you feel bad. That is unless you choose to perceive such a course and effect. Likewise, the body cannot make you feel sad, nor does feeling sad makes the body terrible unless you imagine such a connection. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

When you see a scary movie, it is experienced to be real because it is like the fear manifests in the body. The film, however, does not have the ability to scare you and what you feel in the body is purely physical. It is not caused by the frightening events in the movie but by your perception of them.

You only seem to be scared because this is what you are conditioned to feel when seeing certain things. And to make it real that you feel afraid, you project the idea on a body part that already is tense and seems to get tenser when you give it your attention. Thus it feels as if the movie makes you scared.

Sometimes, it goes the other way around. You have a stomach ache, but it does not make you special to have that. So you imagine, it is caused by something psychological. Unfortunately, this combination results in a psychosomatic disorder that is incurable, especially because the psychological part of it most likely is made up. Hence there is nothing to heal but the belief that there is someone who can condition itself to feel this.

PART 2
The mood you like and perceive to reflect who you are, have been materialised in the body, or rather in the way you choose to feel of it, so the mood can be recalled when sadness seems to come your way. Since you have done the same with emotions you do not like, in an attempt to forever hide them in vulnerable parts of the body, those parts may seem to disturb your favourite mood.

That is unless you discard the link you have made between physical and psychological feelings and are willing to be in the emptiness that arises from not your own conditioning to feel something specific. It may seem scary at first, but there is nothing to link it to since you are in a void. Thus you realise, when there is not something specific, there is not something to cause problems. Thus you are in the bliss of nothing.

Applying the duality hacks, your conditioned expectations to what you should feel are undone, so you can be in the bliss of nothing.

That being said, just like a pencil needs an eraser to undo its scribblings, you need a duality hack to cancel the link you have made between physical and psychological feelings. This could, for example, be the empty breath.** It is not something but nothing, so that is what it sees. In other words, your link is not acknowledged as something, neither is whatever it links, so you are in the bliss of nothing. See hack #5.3 ´The empty breath´, and the bliss of not believing to be someone for more info about the empty breath** and hack #5.2 Uncontrolled speed leads to a state of not-knowing for how to connect with it.

When you react to something, it is not due to what others do or say but how you have conditioned yourself by linking physical and psychological feelings. It is, therefore, not what they say or do you want to go away but how it triggers the pain of this link in you.

When the body is not used to materialise the feelings that you believe establish what you want to be and hide those feelings not supporting that, it is free from your dictatorship. So are you because then the body is not an instrument for conditioning anymore.

Having conditioned yourself to feel something specific in case of specific events, so the perception of yourself as special is upheld, you always are on the lookout for specific reactions in the body that can confirm this.

This automatically happens when connecting with the empty breath** (or applying one or more of the other duality hacks) because the state of not-knowing that this entails wipes the slate clean, so you return to the conscious experience of being someone as the basic self.* Since the script of the brain cannot be changed – only the perception of it – this does not mean you are free to do what you want. But you are free to perceive the script as it is instead of compulsively making up perceptions that seem to change it to something you have conditioned yourself to believe is better.

Being in sync with the script, you do not try to become happy from being and having something special because you are continuously injected with shots of happiness by the brain for supporting it.

As everything seems the same when being happy, there is no diversity from which you can choose something to be more exciting than something else, and thus no hope of something better to come. You may, therefore, find being in a constant state of happiness to be boring and choose to improve the basic self by making a perception of it in which you seem to be the centre of exciting things as a special self.

This is the end of happiness because now feeling good depends on being and having something special, and it never lasts. But also because the special self is founded on the idea that there must be something better. So no matter what it achieves in being and having, it is never good enough. There must be something better.

Fortunately, the frustration of never finding something better can, if unedited, ignite a take-off to the empty breath,** so you again have the slate wiped clean and return to the conscious experience of being someone definitive as the basic self and thus are injected with shots of happiness. Eventually, you are so happy that there is no more to ask for. Hence the belief that it is possible to be and have more than that which is one is undone.

Since that is the whole purpose of Alexius´ Enlightened Non-Teachings and since being conditioned or not requires more than one, it really does not matter what you are or whether you are tense. Yet it may matter in the process of having the belief that it is possible to be and have more than that which is one is undone. Without conditioning and a tense body, the process of it is so much more fun. Fortunately, you can have your cake and eat too. You can keep any conditioning if you perceive it as it is what it is* because then its built-in expectation of a particular outcome is undone, so you are happy no matter what that is or if you are tense or not.

So not need to make it your new purpose to become free of conditioning and tensions or anything else, for that matter. Rather stick to the undoing of the belief that it is possible to be and have more than that which is one because there is no behaviour or anything else to get rid of as that takes more than one.

INTERLUDE
When you suppress the feelings you perceive to be wrong, the ones seen to be correct are also excluded because, in a world of duality, everything comes in pairs. Since you always look for approval, you do not suppress that. But since it is paired with shame, you cannot help but feel the embarrassment of being an oppressor.

To distance yourself from this feeling, you project it partially on others, your father or boss, for example. But doing so, their approval only seems to be partial. Thus you feel, you are not good enough. If, however, perceiving that as it is what is, it does not result in feeling inadequate. Thus the need to blame somebody for putting you down is gone.

The more you exclude/suppress, the more inadequate you feel. Unfortunately, you probably conclude that to resolve that, you need to eliminate even more. And on it goes until you are so restricted by your editing of yourself and others that the built-up frustrations ignite a take-off to the empty breath.** It wipes the slate clean, so you perceive everything as it is what it is,* and thus are equally entertained by so-called bad things as good ones.

When a ball is coming your way, it´s a natural reflex to respond and following such reflexes is pure fun.

When a ball is coming your way, it is an automatic reflex to respond to it. Automatically following such reflexes is natural and invokes the memory of how easy it is when you are nobody. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

PART 3:
Sometimes a doctor may check the function of a body by knocking on special points to see if the involuntary movements – also called reflexes – works. But, actually, everything you appear to do in the world where there seems to be more than one is involuntary movements. That is unless you work very hard to make a perception of them, so what and where you appear to be looks like it is your choice.

To make the formlessness of that which is you appear as if it is someone special is not easy. It takes many years of going to school plus many special lessons to learn how to exclude what you judge not to be special.

An image of you as someone special is fabricated by postulating automatic reflexes to be of your own choice and suppressing the experience of the natural reflexes not fitting into the image of you, that you want the world to see.

To fabricate this perception, the behaviour of automatic reflexes is translating into something that seems to be an autonomously choice of someone specific. And by learning how to suppress the reflexes that do not fit into this image of being unique and independent, you become a person who seems to do everything by its own choice, while those judged to be outside of you seem to be doing things against or in favour of you by their choice.

Undoing the belief in being someone special is like taking a step into the unknown – but as life cannot be known, that is exactly where you will find it.

The specific appearance of you that, like a puzzle, has been put together through trials and error is believed to be separated from what you have decided not to be and thus perceive to be outside of you so that it seems the world consists of you and different individuals living an autonomous life.

When this is believed to be a game that you are playing, it is easy to play along, but when believed to be real, it is hard work because you always have to suppress the natural flow to appear as someone living your own special life in your own way and pace.

It is so much easier just to go with the flow of the natural reflexes. It also feels so much better because going with the flow, you feel fulfilled, so you do not need to be special. Being nobody is great because then there is not somebody else – and that is so peaceful.

APPENDIX
The special self does not know its psychological emotions, only what it is supposed to experience if somebody is too late for an appointment, for example, or something bad according to its theories of right and wrong. This it does not feel either because the disappointment or rejection is suppressed in explanations of being unjustly treated.

Anything explainable is mental and thus not an emotion.

The moment the special self stops justifying these made-up feelings, they are exposed to be as fake as how special you believe to be. Nothing in the script of the brain is about justice, and you cannot be anything else than planned by the brain. Its whole design is about entertainment and perceiving every feeling as it is what it is,* that is what you get.

Hence there is no need to avoid giving or receiving emotions to make the world appear as if it will be per the theories you have of a better world. That is why all feelings, though experienced to be different, are perceived to be neutral. So, just like getting wet in the rain does not change what you are, nor does getting angry or glad.


*) See hack #4.2 Being a self or no-self).

**) Read more about the empty breath in


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