To be depressed or blissed

The special self wants to make selected ones feel unique, so they become dependent on it to feel important.

Since joy comes from being inclusive, excluding negative thoughts, for example, does not bring about happiness but sadness. And no matter what special diet or philosophy you follow to solve it, nothing is resolved until everything is included. Read more about that in hack #3.2 Inclusiveness completeness.


The special self is a modified version of the basic self that its rebellious consciousness has invented in an attempt to be liberated from the perceived tyranny of the brain. However, it is impossible to change the self. Yet, it is possible to construct a perception that excludes all experiences of not being in control, so you seem to be a special self who always does things in its own way and pace.

Being exclusive, however, does not bring about fulfilment, so the special self never feels satisfied, whereas the basic self always feels complete because it never excludes anything.


The basic self´s perception is in sync with the stream of thoughts coming from the brain. Therefore, as it is rewarded for this by shots of happiness, it has no need to be or achieve something special to feel good. On the other hand, the special self always tries to find special moments from the past to replicate in the present, so it still feels special.


The special self always finds something about others that it judges to be wrong. Hence they become the imperfect background for its perfect self.


When the special self perceives to have failed, it takes on the role of being secondary. Thus the failure does not seem to have been caused by itself but by somebody else.


If you perceive specific parts in the experiences produced by the brain, so you seem to capture, stop or change them, they become sticky and you, therefore, inflexible.


The special self needs to convince at least one person about how crucial it is, which it achieves by smothering someone with the kind of attention it senses, that is required to make that person feel chosen. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

Nothing in a dream can be changed by the dreamer except the perception of it. So though you are not in charge of the events, you decide to perceive specific ones as frightening, wherefore fear becomes sticky and not just a fleeting feeling. Likewise, when you insist on being someone substantial in a tangible world.


The special self wants to make others believe, it has something rare that will help them get closer to their core, from where they can control life and mould it to feel fulfilled. But the life you experience in a world where there seems to be more than one is no more controllable than the life you experience in the world of a dream. Just like in a dream world, there is nobody in a world where there seems to be more than one because it takes more than one to somewhere, and there is no more than that which is one.


Again and again, the special self likes to show off as if it has invaluable insights from extraordinary experiences that can help those judged not to have what it takes. Since this is no more possible than to help those in the world of a dream, the special self pieces together an interpretation of its interaction with others, which in retrospect, establishes itself as someone who has helped them become better.

Though it may not manipulate a lot into believing that this is so, it often succeeds in shaping at least one person into accepting it by making this person feel so wanted and loved that it thinks it cannot live without the one making it feels unique.


If the special self discovers that others have interpreted something it did as wrong, it avoids feeling guilty by shouting, »Look what you made me do.«


First, Alexius thought his fear was caused by his father, who often exploded in anger and beat him in his childhood. Next, he thought he caused it himself because he was so afraid of not being good enough. Then he stopped looking for a cause. And as there is no effect without a cause, there is no fear anymore. Read more about cause and effect in the hack No Cause = No Effect = No Karma, which you can find in Extra Duality Hacks. And read more about Alexius´ childhood in You undo the belief in duality by enjoying it, Part 3.


The special self likes to hide its loneliness by making somebody dependent upon it. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

Most like to believe they feel upset because of the flow of thoughts coming from the brain. But the distress comes from the attempt to edit it. When a single thought is sought out from the stream of thoughts, it generates a new stream, and if a specific thought is singled out from that, yet another stream is made, and so on – just like if you split a neutron from an atom nucleus, it sends out more neutrons all by itself, that split and sends out more neutrons. It is a chain reaction.


The self-perception of the special self is built upon knowing what it is, so it rejects what would make it relax, namely the bliss coming from a state of not-knowing.


You feel free and feathery when not altering or rejecting something in your perception to shape the image of you into something special. It takes so much time and effort to invent a special appearance from which selected experiences are eliminated or changed, so you appear to be absent of power strivings, selfishness, greed, anger, negative thoughts or whatever you assume to be politically incorrect.

In a world of duality, negativity is as important as negativity. An electrical wire, for example, cannot produce energy without the negative pole.

Since everything in a world of duality comes in pairs and the special self excludes the apparently dark side of those in its perception of itself and thus how it experiences the world, the energy of duality is not expressed but suppressed. And even though the special self never feels it has enough energy and, therefore, would like to let go of its control, it holds back because it is afraid that it will be devoured by darkness if it does so.

And it is in the right about this. The uncontrolled energy of suppressed feelings ignites a take-off into the empty breath.* In this state of not-knowing* the self disappears into the nothingness from where it seemed to have arisen. Thus all that is left is the bliss of emptiness.

This, however, does not last for more than 20 minutes, 45 at most. Then you return to the consciousness of being someone in a world of duality with the slate wiped clean. As darkness and lightness, therefore, are perceived to be two sides of the same coin, feeling grim contains feeling bright and vice versa.


In a state of not-knowing,* there is no sense of separation or union, as they are concepts based on the belief in separation. There is nothing but the bliss that comes from not judging the apparent differences to make a difference. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

Entering a state of not-knowing* is like falling down into the body. Not in the sense that you become more physical or it is integrated with higher frequencies. You do not become more of anything, nor do you incorporate something, because falling down in the body, you grasp it is nothing and that the experience of it as something substantial in a tangible world is a fantasy. However, this is not sensed while in a state of not-knowing,* because there is nobody to be aware of this, nor how blissful it is to not be conscious of something specific.

Hence everything said in Alexius´ Enlightened Non-Teachings about a state of not-knowing* is based on the memories that pop up after Alexius returns to the consciousness of being someone definitive. Though a state of not-knowing* is impersonal, the memories of it are not, so his memories can be different from yours. Just like two persons drinking the same tea may describe it differently, although the tea is the same.


A state of not-knowing* does not reveal that which is one, but a world where there seems to be more than one is nothing. The result of this revelation is not that you choose to return to that which is one because that requires more than one. Instead, you come back to the consciousness of being someone in a world where there seems to be more than one as a basic self.

Being a basic self, you sooner or later are so happy that you forget to choose, and since not choosing does not require more than one, the enlightenment of that which is one is bid welcome. See hack #6.1 From the inward-facing senses through a black hole into that which is one.


Returning from a state of not-knowing* to the conscious experience of being a basic self, you probably feel so entertained that you forget the bliss of not being aware of something. When you finally remember, you may feel guilty having forgotten it. No worries. Feeling guilty is also entertaining. Besides, not trying to get rid of the feeling, its uncontrolled energy ignites a take-off into the empty breath,* that takes you back to the nothingness the experience of guilt is produced from.

Since it took the brain one second to create the experience of guilt from out of nothing, the empty breath* takes you back one second in linear time. Thus you are in the gap, the brain perceives to be between nothing and oneness and, therefore, in the bliss of not perceiving the experiences of the brain as something, including yourself, until you again return to the conscious experience of being a basic self. However, this time, you may remember what and where you appear to be is nothing and that this includes feeling guilty or something else.

But probably not for long. You will most likely go back and forth between a state of not-knowing* and the consciousness of being someone many times before you get to this point. And the latter may have contained much unrest or days where you hardly could keep awake. No worries. Time is nothing.


Just like the night excludes the day and vice versa, spirituality excludes consciousness and vice versa. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

All experiences, regardless perceived to be direct, spiritual, or whatnot, come from the brain, where they are fabricated to make the biological system react upon them as if it is a self inside a body that has them and thus seems to be a substantial being in a tangible world.

The brain counts on the self it has created to make this conclusion because otherwise, it is evident that the experiences of itself in a world among like-minded beings is unreal. In other words, since the self wants to survive as a substantial being, it chooses to perceive the experiences produced by the brain as tangible.

Whether this perception relates to the experiences produced by the brain positively or negatively does not matter. As long as it relates to the experiences as they are and not as the self would like them to be, the experience of being someone in the world of the brain feels good. However, it does not feel good if the self is not relating to the experiences as they are but to a concept of something better, such as a spiritual, socialistic or capitalistic world.

Nevertheless, no matter if your perception is in sync with the world of the brain or not, the result is an internal dialogue. In the case of the basic self, there is an inner conversation with someone from the world of the brain. In contrast, the special self has internal conversations with the concepts of somebody perceived to support or fight its ideas of a better world (read more about that here). Both kinds of conversations seem to confirm there is more than one and that oneness is an illusion.

Nobody, in particular, is making a dream you seem to have. And nor you or anybody else is in it. Likewise, appearing to be a substantial being in a tangible world is a fantasy made by nobody.

But it is the other way around. Oneness is formless and therefore endless, so there is no more than that which is one. Consequently, everything you read is an illusion, including explaining that your appearance as someone in a world where there seems to be more than one is made by the brain. It is not caused by anyone as that requires more than one. In other words, you are not someone in a world where there seems to be more than one or anywhere else.

However, appearing to be someone in a world that is not there, it is beneficial to go along with the illusion as it is. By doing that you have fun while the belief in being there is undone. Just like you had fun getting a present from Santa until he was exposed as a fantasy.


The special self always looks for something to do right to hide it feels wrong. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

What you believe in being is the brain because all your experiences are created and stored there. Also, if they are perceived to come from the heart, an angel, and whatnot (read more about that here).

Since it always takes one second for the brain to fabricate an experience – including to be authentic, at one, or in the now – what you believe to be aware of right now is an image of the past, that, according to the brain, is compiled from the frequencies it received from your sensory system one second ago.

Though you only have the brains word for that, you choose to believe this is a fact because otherwise, all your experiences are exposed as fantasies constructed by the brain from out of nothing (read more about that here). For those who question the brain’s assertion about the origin of experiences, it makes up another story, for example, your experiences are processed on frequencies of the chakras.


The application of one or more duality hacks does not produce anything but the bliss of nothing. That is if you do not cling to something special because that brings about depression.

Since it takes more than one to be in any state, the above does not apply to the enlightenment of that which is one (hack #6.1 From the inner senses through a black hole into that which is one). It does not entail bliss or anything else that requires more than one.


The moment you stop relating to somebody, you go into a state of not-knowing. This occurs when you do not care about what and where you appear to be because then no relation is needed to establish you as someone definitive.


The changeover to a state of not-knowing, which can last from a split second to several days, may seem unpleasant. This is because the brain tries to distract you from leaving its definable world by producing very tangible and disturbing experiences, as if ants crawl on your body, for instance, so that you feel attacked and thus being someone definitive. See also If included irritation undoes the belief in duality.


The apparent transition from something to nothing may feel like being in a cage that cannot be escaped. Not because there is a cage. But because what you believed to be is not disguised as something anymore, so you cannot escape the feeling of claustrophobia, nor any other emotion, by hiding it in something. Fortunately, by accepting that, all feelings are exposed as nothing. Therefore, eventually, there does not appear to be something to hide that which cannot be felt because it is formless, namely oneness.


It is not possible to return to that which is one. Nor is it possible to leave it, as it is formless and, therefore, inseparable. In other words, there is nothing to learn from Alexius´ Enlightened Non-Teachings but everything to unlearn.

*) Read about the empty breath and a state of not-knowing in the following articles or the below hacks

All duality hacks, except the enlightenment of that which is one, brings about a state of not-knowing, so you can pick one or more if you like to undo the belief in duality. However, HACK #3, Not being exclusive but inclusive is freedom from being someone definitive is very much about a state of not-knowing.

NOTE: This article is part of hack #4.1 The basic self versus the special one.

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