NZR To be depressed or blissed

It is crucial for the special self to make selected ones feel special so that they become dependent on the special self to feel unique.

You are automatically rewarded with shots of happiness when what you perceive to be and have is in sync with the basic thoughts coming from the brain, which is not that many. That is unless you rearrange them into an experience of being more special, for example spiritual, than the basic self the thoughts are meant to uphold. See also Thoughts do not come from you but the Cloud.

The special self is always looking for something to make right so that it does not feel wrong.

The special self, which is a revised version of the basic self that its rebellious consciousness has assembled to liberate it from the brain, is always hectic thinking about how to control its experiences, so what it judges to be wrong can be excluded from them, and it can feel the happiness it expects to come from being right.

Since happiness comes from being inclusive, the exclusion of negative thoughts or anything else does not bring about happiness but sadness. And no matter what special diet or philopsohies you follow to solve this, nothing is solved until what has been excluded is included.

But happiness cannot be controlled, and since the purpose of whatever the special self seems to do is to be in control, it never feels happy. The basic self on the other hand always feels happy, as it is not in control of anything, but in the flow of everything coming from the brain.


Since the basic self is rewarded with shots of happiness induced by the brain for following its stream of thoughts, it has no wish to be or achieve something specific to feel good. So contrary to the special self, that does not feel good unless it is in control, the basic self has no need to change anything.


Though nothing in a dream is planned by anybody, everything goes according to plan. And there is nothing you can do about it, except to change your perception of it.

In other words, though you do not have any control over the events in a dream that you are having, it is you who decide if you want to be frightened by something or not. Likewise when you appear to be somebody substantial in a tangible world.


The special self needs to convince at least one person about how important it is, which it achieves by smothering someone with the kind of attention it senses, that is required to make that person feel chosen. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

The special self always finds thoughts and feelings, it judges to be wrong and caused by somebody else, so that others become the imperfect background for their perfect self.


Often the special self likes to show off as if it wants to make the world better. But it is just a tricky way to cover up that it wants to be in control of it so that it can be changed into something which suits its needs better. But since this is no more possible than to be in control of a dream, the special self piece together an interpretation of the world, which in retrospect seems to reflect that everything is revolving around it.

The special self wants to make others believe, it has something special that can help them, so they will not be lost but in control of their life and thus able to mould it in such a way that everything they deserve come to them.

It may not be able to manipulate a lot of persons into believing this interpretation, but often succeeds in converting at least one person by making it feel so special, that it thinks it cannot live without the one making it feels so loved and wanted, wherefore the special self appears to be of utmost importance in its world.

The story of the world is constantly been rewriting by the special self, so that it seems to be in control and therefore has the power to decide what everybody is doing and why.

But to uphold this appearance you must always exclude everything from your memory, that does not fit into your special story of you as the lead character and others as a background character pointing out your importance for the world.

Only in this way are you able to believe you are unique being, who has its own special experiences and invaluable insights, although you are nothing, because it takes more than one to be something and there is no more than that which is one since it is formless and therefore endless.


The special self likes to hide its loneliness by making somebody dependent upon it. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

As the special self is a control freak, it needs alcohol, drugs meditation or something else mind-numbing to escape the feeling of being controlled.


If the special self has done something, that it discovers others judge to be wrong, it avoids feeling bad by saying »Look what you made me do.«


The real motive for all the stories the special self is making up to appear as it is better than others is to conceal that this is not how it feels. It feels secondary, and to escape this, it makes up stories in which it appears to be the lead characters and others the background characters.

And as any emotion popping up might trigger the feeling of inferiority, it chooses to bypass them all by making spell-bounding stories about the background characters and their lack of sensitivity, so that the focus is not on its own hidden feelings but those it concludes others are hiding from it, since it is not feeling anything.


First Alexius thought he was afraid because his father was a bad man who beat him. Next, he thought, it was himself he was scared of being wrong. Then he stopped looking for a cause. And as there is no effect without a cause, there is no fear anymore. Read more about cause and effect in the hack No Cause = No Effect = No Karma, which you can find in Extra Duality hacks.


Not being special you feel free and feathery. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

Not being special you feel free and feathery because you do not spend time on stopping, limiting or changing the experience of what you appear to be by not having sex, negative thoughts and whatnot since nothing has to be changed or restricted to fit into a particular concept.

As that means there is no need to be anything else than what you appear to be in this moment, there is no need to escape feelings of being attacked by others or your own immune system, for example.

Thus the uncontrolled energy of feelings can be used to ignite a take off to the empty breath – see hack #4.4 Uncontrolled speed leads to a state of not-knowingAnd since that leads to a state of not-knowing, there is not somebody anymore to be conscious of emotions as if they are something specific, so they disappear into the nothingness from where they seemed to arise, wherefore all that is left is the bliss of emptiness.

That being said, just like nothing else in a world defined by time and space lasts, neither does this state of bliss Yet it can be used to not only momentarily but always to forget what and where you are, so that you do not appear to hide, there is no more than that which is one.

Read more about this in the article Where to find the bliss of ´the empty breath´ or the hack 20 minutes, 45 at most, that you can find in Extra Duality Hacks.


In a state of not-knowing, there is no sense of separation, neither of a union, as it is a concept based on the sense of separation. There is simply nothing but the bliss of not judging the apparent differences between experiences to make a difference. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

Entering a state of not-knowing is like falling down into the body. Not in the sense though that you become more physical. You do not become more of anything, because falling down in the body you realise it is an imagination made from nothing, and so is the fantasy that someone imagines this. In other words, in a state of not-knowing nothing is changed, except that there is not somebody to believe, that nothing can be something.

That does not mean, nothing is not experienced as something anymore, but that there is not somebody to judge the apparent different experiences to make a difference, wherefore they do not result in the sense of separation – neither union, as it is a concept based on separation. It merely results in nothing, wherefore you are in the bliss of nothing. Yet there is not somebody to know this before you again have conscious experiences of being somebody and memories pop up of how blissful it was being indifferent to that.


A state of not-knowing does not reveal that which is one, but that a world where there seems to be more than one is nothing. This revelation, however, does not make you choose to return to that which is one, because choosing something requires more than one. Yet it makes you choose not to choose, as that does not require more than one, and so the enlightenment of that which is one is bid welcome. See hack #5-7.1 From the inner senses through a black hole into that which is one.


The application of one or more of the duality hacks entails the bliss of nothingness, provided you do not catch something to hold onto, because something involves the depression of being definable.

Since it takes more than one to be in any kind of state, the above does not apply to the enlightenment of that which is one (see hack #5-7.1 From the inner senses through a black hole into that which is one) in which there is no bliss or anything else, as that requires more than one.


While it seems that you are doing something in the world rendered by the brain, you follow its instructions, if you want to play along as someone appearing to be there. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

The brain cannot force the self that it has created to acknowledge the world it renders in 3D. But if it wants to go on as someone definitive in a world defined by time and space, it has to endorse it – read more about that here – as otherwise there is nothing to confirm its as own existence as someone definitive.

If, on the other hand, this is what you want, you should not listen to the stream of thoughts the brain makes to simulate a world where there seems to be more than one. Nor should you try to stop or change it, but listen to the emptiness from where the brain has created what and where you appear to.

No sounds or anything else is actually coming from this emptiness. It is something the brain makes up. And as it always takes one second for it to this – read more about that here – you can listen to the unprocessed nothingness at the very beginning of this second and thus remain in the bliss of not-knowing what and where you appear to. Not for more than 20 minutes, 45 at most, though.

After that, you must again join the brains rendering of a 3D world again or entirely disappear in the nothingness, so that there does not appear something to hide there is nothing but that which is one. See the hack 20 minutes, 45 at most in Extra Duality Hacks.

What you are listening to are glimpses of the enlightenment of that which is one, which also can be seen, felt or tasted. Read more about that here. It turns into the enlightenment of that which is one if you do not perceive the sounds to differ from each other or from you. The same applies if you are seeing, hearing or tasting the glimpses of enlightenment.

That being said, the above explanation should not be taken too literally – especially in the sense that you should not try to memorise it because by doing so you remain in the belief that the virtual world of the brain is real. And all that is needed to undo this belief is the willingness to have it undone.

Those who believe their problems are caused by something in the world works hard to change or avoid specific aspects of it, whereas all their problems would vanish without them doing nothing but being willing to have the belief in being someone undone because that would leave nobody to have a problem.

Hardly anybody, however, wants to have the belief in being someone definitive undone. No worries. If you admit, you are not willing to have the belief in being someone definitive undone, your willingness to go on a journey with no distance to the formlessness of oneness is activated by the acknowledgement of what you appear to be is make-believe.

This willingness is, of course, set aside when doing something in the world of the brain, that craves your attention. When driving a car, for example, you to follow the instructions of the brain, which by the way happens automatically when being the basic self.


Years ago Alexius and his sons had much fun playing different board games. By following the flow of the games, they naturally came to an end. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

By following the stream of thoughts to the end, what you appear to be is automatically finished. It may be the final end of the appearance of you in a body or just what you have appeared to be until then. The latter was what happened to Alexius when he was stuck in the primaeval forest for two days without water and food. His new appearance was as an Enlightened Non-Teacher. Read more about that here.

Finishing the writing of hack #4.3 The basic self versus the special one, which like the rest of HACK #4 is an add-on to his Non-Teachings,* seems to be the end of the stream supporting this writing. And the new appearance seems to be a return to the first one made the brain, namely a storeroom-manager, so creativity does not come in the way for the more boring process of refining the Non-Teachings. None of this changes he is to be compared to the enlightenment of that which is one because that is not an appearance.

The changes of appearance, however, is only possible when you follow the stream of thoughts exactly without trying to stop, change or hold onto anything in particular because that makes parts of the stream sticky.

*) HACK #3, Not being exclusive but inclusive is, by the way, also an add-on. The three original hacks were HACK #1, Pretending to be someone definitiveHACK #2, Seeing symbols of non-duality in a world of duality and HACK #5-7, Inner senses, enlightenment and glimpses of it. They did not arrive in that order though. Enlightenment was the start of it.

**) About willingness, see also Willingness to not exclude but include undoes the belief in a world where there seems to be more than one or INTRO TO HACK #4.5, ´The empty breath´ and the bliss of not believing to be someone.

NOTE: This article is part of hack #4.3 The basic self versus the special one, which is still in the process of being written.