NZR+++ To be depressed or blissed [under development]

It is very important for the special self to make selected ones feel special, so that become dependent on the special self to feel this.

You are automatically rewarded with shots of happiness, if what you perceive to be and have is in sync with the thoughts coming from the brain, which is not that many, when there is no need to rearrange them into an experience of being spiritual or something else, that seems to be more special than the basic self, you are meant to be when following the simple commands of the brain. See also Thoughts do not come from you but the Cloud.

The special self is always looking for something to make right so that it does not feel wrong.

The special self, which is a revised version of the basic self that its rebellious consciousness has assembled to free it from the brain, is always hectic thinking about how to control its experiences, so what it judges to be wrong can be excluded and it can feel the happiness it assumes comes from being right.

Happiness cannot be controlled, and since the purpose of whatever the special self seems to do is to be in control, it does not get happy. The basic self on the other hand is always happy, because it is not in control of anything, but in the flow of everything.

But since happiness comes from being inclusive, the exclusion of negative thoughts and whatnot does not bring the special self happiness but sadness. And no matter what special food or seminars it attends to solve this, nothing is solved until it includes what was excluded.


Since the basic self is rewarded with shots of happiness induced by the brain for following its stream of thoughts, it has no wish to be or achieve something specific in order to feel good. So contrary to the special self, that does not feel good unless it is in control, the basic self has no need to change anything.


Though nothing in a dream is planned by anybody, everything goes according to plan. And there is nothing you can do about it, except to change your perception of it.

In other words, though you do not have any control over the events in a dream that you are having, it is you who decide if you want to be frightened by something or not. Likewise when you appear to be somebody substantial in a tangible world.


The special self needs to convince at least one person about how important it is, which it achieves by smothering someone with the kind of attention it senses, that is needed to make that person feel chosen. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

The special self always finds thoughts and feelings, it judges to be wrong and caused by somebody else, so that others become the imperfect background for their perfect self.


Often the special self likes to show off as if it wants to make the world better. But it is just a tricky way to cover up that it wants to be in control of it so that it can be changed into something which suits its needs better. But since this is no more possible than to be in control of a dream, the special self piece together an interpretation of the world, which in retrospect seems to reflect that everything is revolving around it.

The special self wants to make others believe, it has something special that can help them, so they will not be lost but in control of their life and thus able to mould it in such a way that everything they deserve come to them.

It may not be able to manipulate a lot of persons into believing this interpretation, but often succeeds in converting at least one person by making it feel so special, that it thinks it cannot live without the one making it feels so loved and wanted, wherefore the special self appears to be of utmost importance in its world.

The story of the world is constantly been rewriting by the special self, so that it seems to be in control and therefore has the power to decide what everybody is doing and why.

But to uphold this appearance you must always exclude everything from your memory, that does not fit into your special story of you as the lead character and others as a background character pointing out your importance for the world.

Only in this way are you able to believe that you are unique being, who has special experiences and invaluable insights, although you are nothing and there is not anything to experience or realise, as it takes more than one to be, experience or realise something and there is no more than that which is one, since it is formless and therefore endless.


The special self likes to hide its loneliness by making somebody dependent upon it. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

As the special self is a control freak, it needs alcohol, drugs meditation or something else mind-numbing to escape the feeling of being controlled.


If the special self has done something, that it discovers others judge to be wrong, it escapes feeling bad by saying »Look what you made me do.«


The real motive for all the stories the special self is making up to appear as it is better than others is to conceal that this is not how it feels. It feels secondary, and to escape this it makes up stories in which it appears to be the lead characters and others the background characters.

And as any emotion popping up might trigger the feeling of inferiority, it chooses to bypass them all by making spell-bounding stories about the background characters and their lack of sensitivity, so that the focus is not on its own hidden feelings but those it concludes others are hiding from it, since it is not feeling anything.


First Alexius thought he was afraid because his father was a bad man who beat him. Next, he thought, it was himself he was afraid of being bad. Then he stopped looking for a cause. And as there is no effect without a cause, there is no fear anymore. Read more about cause and effect in the hack No Cause = No Effect = No Karma, which you can find in Extra Duality hacks.


Not being special you feel free and feathery because you do not spend time on stopping, limiting or changing the experience of what you appear to be by not having sex, negative thoughts and whatnot since nothing has to be changed or restricted in order to fit into a special concept.

As that means there is no need to be anything else than what you appear to be in this moment, there is no need to escape feelings of being attacked by others or your own immune system, for example.

Thus the uncontrolled energy of feelings can be used to ignite a take off to the empty breath – see hack #4.4 Uncontrolled speed leads to a state of not-knowingAnd since that leads to a state of not-knowing, there is not somebody anymore to be conscious of feelings as if they are something specific, so they disappear into the nothingness from where they seemed to arise, wherefore all that is left is the bliss of emptiness.

That being said, just like nothing else in a world defined by time and space lasts, neither does this state of bliss Yet it can be used to not only momentarily but always to forget what and where you are, so that you do not appear to hide, there is no more than that which is one.

Read more about this in the article Where to find the bliss of ´the empty breath´ or the hack 20 minutes, 45 at most, that you can find in Extra Duality Hacks.


In a state of not-knowing, there is no sense of separation, neither of a union, as it is a concept based on the sense of separation. There is simply nothing but the bliss of not judging the apparent differences between experiences to make a difference. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

Entering a state of not-knowing is like falling down into the body. Not in the sense though that you become more physical. You do not become more of anything, because falling down in the body you realise it is an imagination made from nothing, and so is the fantasy that someone is imagining this. In other words, in a state of not-knowing nothing is changed, except that there is not somebody to believe, that nothing can be something.

That does not mean, nothing is not experienced as something anymore, but that there is not somebody to judge the apparent different experiences to make a difference, wherefore they do not result in a sense of separation – neither union, as it is a concept based on separation. It simply results in nothing, wherefore you are in the bliss of nothing. Yet there is not somebody to know this before you again have conscious experiences of being somebody and memories pop up of how blissful it was being indifferent to that.


A state of not-knowing does not reveal that which is one, but that a world where there seems to be more than one is nothing. This revelation, however, does not make you choose to return to that which is one, because choosing something requires more than one. Yet it makes you choose not to choose, as that does not require more than one, and so the enlightenment of that which is one is bid welcome. See hack #5-7.1 From the inner senses through a black hole into that which is one.


The application of one or more of the duality hacks entails the bliss of nothingness, provided you do not catch something to hold onto, because something entails the depression of being definable.

Since it takes more than one to be in any kind of state, the above does not apply to the enlightenment of that which is one (see hack #5-7.1 From the inner senses through a black hole into that which is one) in which there is no bliss or anything else, as that requires more than one.

NOTE: This article is part of hack #4.3 The basic self versus the special one.