NZR++ To be depressed or blissed [under development]

It is very important for the special self to make selected ones feel special, so that become dependent on the special self to feel this.

Since the basic self is rewarded with shots of happiness induced by the brain for following its stream of thoughts, it has no wish to be or achieve something specific in order to feel good. So contrary to the special self, that does not feel good unless it is in control, the basic self has no need of changing anything.

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Though nothing in a dream is planned by anybody, everything goes according to plan. There is nothing you can do about it, except how you want to perceive it.

In other words, though you do not seem to have any control over the events in a dream that you are having, it is you who decide if you want to be frightened by something in the dream or not. Likewise when you appear to be somebody substantial in a tangible world.

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The special self needs to convince at least one person about how important it is, which it achieves by smothering someone with the kind of attention it senses, that is needed to make that person feel chosen. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

Often the special self likes to show off as if it wants to make the world better. But it is just a sneaky way to cover up that it wants to control it, so it can be changed into something which suits its needs better. This, however, is no more possible than to be in control of a dream, so the special self piece together an interpretation of the world, that in retrospect seems to reflect that everything is revolving around it.

The special self wants to make others believe, it has something special that can help them, so they will not be lost but in control of their life and thus able to mould it in such a way that everything they deserve come to them.

If not able to manipulate many persons into believing its interpretation and thus responding to it as it is real, the special self will try to convince at least one person by making it feel so special, that it feels it cannot live without the one making it feels so loved and wanted, and therefore seems to confirm the world revolves around the special self.

The story of the world is constantly been rewriting by the special self, so that it seems to be in control and therefore has the power to decide what everybody is doing and why.

So if you believe to be special and there also seems to be someone confirming this, it is because you always excludes everything from your memory, that does not fit into your special story of a world, where you are the lead character and everybody else a background character pointing out the uniqueness of you.

That is why you believe to be and experience something special, although you are nothing and there is not anything to experience, as it takes more than one to be or experience something and there is no more than that which is one, since it is formless and therefore endless.

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As the special self is a control freak, it needs alcohol, drugs meditation or something else mind-numbing to escape the feeling of being controlled.

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The special self likes to hide its loneliness by making somebody dependent upon it. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

The special self always finds thoughts and feelings, it judges as wrong and caused by somebody else, so that others become the imperfect background for the perfectness of itself.

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If the special self does something, that it considers others judge to be wrong, it escapes feeling wrong by saying »Look what you made me do.«

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The real motive for all the stories the special self makes up to make it appear better than others is to hide that this is not how it feels. It feels secondary and to escape that it makes up stories in which it appears to be the lead characters and others the background characters.

But as any emotion popping up might lead to feeling inferior, it chooses to bypass them all by making spell-bounding stories about the background characters and their lack of sensitivity, so that the focus is not on its own hidden feelings but those it concludes others are hiding from it, since it is not feeling anything.

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Not being special you feel free and feathery, because you do not spend time on stopping, limiting or changing the experience of what you appear to be by not having sex, negative thoughts or whatnot, since nothing has to be changed or restricted in order to fit into a special concept.

As that means there is no need to be anything else than what you appear to be in this moment, there is no need to escape the feelings of it, for example being attacked by others or your own immune system.

Thus the uncontrolled energy of unpleasant feelings can be used as a take off to the empty breath – see hack #4.4 Uncontrolled speed leads to a state of not-knowingAnd since that leads to a state of not-knowing, there is not somebody anymore to be conscious of feelings as if they are something specific, so they disappear into the nothingness from where they seemed to arise, so that all there is left is the bliss of emptiness.

That being said, the only thing that lasts is that which is one, because it is formless and therefore without beginning and end. In other words, as it requires more than one to be in a state, just like everything else in a world where there seems to be more than one, a state of not-knowing has a beginning and an end. Yet it can be used to totally forget what and where you are, so that you do not appear to hide, there is no more than that which is one.

Read more about this in the article Where to find the bliss of ´the empty breath´ or the hack 20 minutes, 45 at most, that you can see an overview of in Extra Duality Hacks.

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In a state of not-knowing there is no sense of separation, neither of union, as it is a concept based on the sense of separation. There is simply nothing but the bliss of not judging the apparent differences between experiences to make a difference. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

Entering a state of not-knowing is like falling down into the body. But not in the sense that you become more physical. You do not become more of anything, because falling down in the body you realise it is an imagination made from nothing and so is the fantasy that someone is having this imagination. In other words, in a state of not-knowing nothing is changed, except that there is not somebody to believe, that nothing can be something.

That does not mean, the imaginary world where there seems to be more than one is not experienced anymore, but that there is not somebody to judge the apparent different experiences to make a difference, wherefore they do not result in a sense of separation – neither union, as it is a concept based on separation. It simply results in nothing. Thus you are in the bliss of nothingness. Yet there is nobody to know this, before you again have s conscious experiences of being somebody and memories pop up of how blissful it was being indifferent to that.

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A state of not-knowing does not reveal what that which is one is, but that a world where there seems to be more than one is nothing. This revelation does not make you choose to return to that which is one, as returning to something requires more than one. But it makes you choose not to choose, as that does not require more than one, and so the enlightenment of that which is one is bid welcome. See hack #5-7.1 From the inner senses through a black hole into that which is one.

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The application of one or more of the duality hacks entails a state of not-knowing, provided you are willing to have no fixed point to hold onto but be in the bliss of nothingness. Should you try to grab something to hold onto, you remain in the depression of defining yourself as someone.

Since it takes more than one to be in any kind of state, the above does not apply to the enlightenment of that which is one (see hack #5-7.1 From the inner senses through a black hole into that which is one). There is no bliss or anything else, because there is nothing but that which always was and will be, namely that which is one.


NOTE: This article is part of hack #4.3 The basic self versus the special one.