The special self only cares about the whole, if that seems to make it more special [under construction]

With the basic self feelings are passing by all the time, so that you constantly have an experience of being someone definitive in a world defined by time and space. None of them last long though, so even though there is nothing exciting about the basic self, you are never bored. With the special self though feelings seems to last longer, because it holds onto them in an attempt to be defined by them. Yet feelings prolonged by music and whatnot becomes a pain in the ass.

Thus you are always looking for something to improve them so that you do not just feel love, for example, but pure love. You do not just experience something but are having a direct experience – and so on.

As you get very confused by all this, you feel like goung back to basic. Not the basic self though, but some speculate state of going beyond the mind, although there is nothing to be beyond, because whether you follow the basic or special self, what you follow is nothing. There is no self, there is no you.

The idea of going beyond, being transformed, live in the now, coming from the heat or whatnot are nothing but ways to hide the illusion of your existence, because the idea of going beyond it or transform establishes as real, and that which cannot go anywhere as it is that which is one an it takes more than one to go somewhere as unreal, although there is no more that, since it is formless and therefore endless.

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