[+] To be depressed or blissed

It is crucial for the special self to make selected ones feel special so that they become dependent on the special self to feel unique.

Not too many thoughts are needed to uphold the basic self that you automatically are when being in sync with thoughts produced by the brain for you to feel happy. But if this happiness is perceived to be stupid and annoying, you probably rearrange the basic thoughts of the brain into an experience of something more exciting, as that can be used to multiply thoughts into a story where you as more special than the basic self, than the thoughts originally were meant to uphold. See also Thoughts do not come from you but the Cloud.


The special self is always looking for something to make right so that it does not feel wrong.


The special self, which is a revised version of the basic self that its rebellious consciousness has assembled in an attempt to liberate it from the brain, is always hectic thinking about how to control its experiences, so what it judges to be wrong can be excluded from them, and it can feel the happiness it expects to come from being right.

Since happiness comes from being inclusive, the exclusion of negative thoughts or anything else does not bring about happiness but sadness. And no matter what special diet or philosophies you follow to solve this, nothing is solved until what has been excluded is included.

But happiness does not come from being in control, and since being that is the purpose of everything the special self does, it never feels happy. The basic self, on the other hand, always feels good, because it is not in control of anything but in the flow of everything that comes from the brain.


Since the basic self follows the stream of thoughts as they come from the brain and therefore automatically is induced with shots of happiness, it has no need to be or achieve something special to feel good. The special self, on the other hand, always tries to find special moments of its past that it can replicate in the present to feel good.


Though nothing in a dream is planned by anybody, everything goes according to plan. And there is nothing you can change except your perception of it.

In other words, though you do not have any control over the events in a dream that you are having, it is you who decide if you want to be frightened by it or not. Likewise when you appear to be somebody substantial in a tangible world.


The special self needs to convince at least one person about how crucial it is, which it achieves by smothering someone with the kind of attention it senses, that is required to make that person feel chosen. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

The special self always finds thoughts and feelings, that it judges to be wrong and caused by somebody else, so they become the imperfect background for its perfect self.


Again and again, the special self likes to show off as it wants to make the world better. But it is just a trick to cover up it wants to control the world around it so it can be changed into something that suits its egoistic needs. Since this is no more possible than to be in control of the world in a dream, the special self pieces together an interpretation of the world, which in retrospect seems to fool itself into believing that everything revolves around it.

The special self wants to make others believe, it has something special that can help them, so they will not be lost but in control of their life and thus able to mould it in such a way that everything they deserve come to them.

It may not be able to manipulate others into believing its interpretation but often succeeds in converting at least one person by making it feels so special, that it thinks it cannot live without the one making it feels so loved and wanted, wherefore the special self appears to be of utmost importance.

The story of the world is constantly been rewriting by the special self, so that it seems to know what is going on and therefore also what everybody is doing and why.

To hide for itself that this is not really so, the special self suppresses the memories, that do not fit into the story of how vital, unique and independent it is. Thus it also conceals, its extraordinary experiences or invaluable insights are nothing because it takes more than one to be something and there is no more than that which is one since it is formless and therefore endless.


The special self likes to hide its loneliness by making somebody dependent upon it. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

As the special self is a control freak, it needs alcohol, drugs meditation or something else mind-numbing to escape the feeling of being controlled.


If the special self discovers that others have interpreted something it did as wrong, it avoids feeling bad about it by shouting »Look what you made me do.«


The real motive for all the stories the special self makes up to appear as it is better than others is to conceal that this is not how it feels. It feels secondary, and to escape that, it makes up stories in which it appears to be the lead character and others the background characters.

And as any emotion popping up might trigger the feeling of inferiority, it chooses to bypass them all by making spell-bounding stories about the background characters and their lack of sensitivity, so that the focus is not on its own hidden feelings but those it concludes others are hiding from it, since it is not feeling anything.


First Alexius thought he was afraid because his father was an angry man who beat him. Next, he thought, it was himself he was scared of being wrong. Then he stopped looking for a cause. And as there is no effect without a cause, there is no fear anymore. Read more about cause and effect in the hack No Cause = No Effect = No Karma, which you can find in Extra Duality hacks.


Not being special you feel free and feathery. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

Not being special you feel free and feathery because you do not spend time on stopping, limiting or changing the experience of what you appear to be by not having sex, negative thoughts and whatnot since nothing has to be altered or restricted, so it fits a particular concept.

As that means there is no need to be anything else than what you appear to be in this moment, there is no need to escape feelings of being attacked by others or your own immune system, for example.

Hence the uncontrolled energy of those feelings can be used to ignite a take-off to the empty breath – see hack #4.4 Uncontrolled speed leads to a state of not-knowingAnd since that leads to a state of not-knowing, where is nobody to be conscious of emotions or anything else to be something specific, they disappear into the nothingness from where they seemed to have arisen. Thus all that is left is the bliss of emptiness.

That being said, just like nothing else in a world defined by time and space lasts, neither does this state. Yet it can be used to not only momentarily but always forget what and where you are, so that you do not appear to be someone that hides there is no more than that which is one.

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The connectedness with the empty breath is like sinking into water and just float along.


In a state of not-knowing, there is no sense of separation, neither of a union, as it is a concept based on the sense of separation. There is simply nothing but the bliss of not judging the apparent differences between experiences to make a difference. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

Entering a state of not-knowing is like falling down into the body. Not in the sense though that you become more physical. You do not become more of anything, because falling down in the body you realise it is an imagination made from out of nothing, and so is the fantasy that someone imagines this. In other words, in a state of not-knowing nothing is changed, except there is not somebody to believe, that the fantasy of a being someone substantial in a tangible world is real.

That does not mean, the fantasy is not experienced anymore, but that there is not somebody to judge its apparent differences to make a difference. Hence there is no sense of separation, nor union since that is a concept, which is based on the belief in separation. Thus nobody is in the bliss of nothingness and, therefore, not somebody to know it before there again is a conscious experience of being somebody and vague memories pop up of how blissful it was being indifferent to be consciousness.


It is not possible to return to that which is one. Nor is it possible to leave it, because it is formless and therefore endless.


A state of not-knowing does not reveal that which is one, but that a world where there seems to be more than one is nothing. This revelation, however, does not result in you choosing to return to that which is one, because choosing something requires more than one. But it makes you choose not to choose, as that does not need more than one, and therefore bids welcome the enlightenment of that which is one. See hack #5-7.1 From the inner senses through a black hole into that which is one.


The application of one or more of the duality hacks does not produce anything but the bliss of nothingness. That is if you do not catch something to hold onto, because something always brings about the depression of being definable.

Since it takes more than one to be in any state, the above does not apply to the enlightenment of that which is one (see hack #5-7.1 From the inner senses through a black hole into that which is one). It does not entail bliss or anything else since that requires more than one.

NOTE: This article is part of hack #4.3 The basic self versus the special one, which is still in the process of being written.